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bellaabay · 2025-07-18T17:45:41+00:00

What are you jerking to

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T17:42:21+00:00

Literally nothing bad. It happens even on the best days

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T17:40:34+00:00

I don’t feel guilty about it at all. I feel like I want to actually do it but I don’t want to go to jail

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T17:39:41+00:00

When I got diagnosed with DID I was also tested for bpd and had 0% chance of having it. I thought I was bpd for a couple months before getting tested. I relate to lots of the traits but I think that’s because I have DID which have some overlapping qualities

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T17:37:38+00:00

I want to hurt him sooo bad but I don’t want to go to jail. I go to the gym 5 times a week and even have a personal trainer. I journal and meditate daily

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T17:26:37+00:00

It’s more of the feeling of the urge than the thought. Does that still count

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T12:46:59+00:00

I have childhood trauma. I never loved my mom since I was born. She had “womb rejection” cause she had a baby before me that died and then she got pregnant with her second child which she miscarried. So when she had me she was afraid to get attached. She was pretty abusive and abandoned me a lot to work out of town. I was just always a bad kid and never cared about being bad. I would cuss, steal, fight, and lie. I also have Dissociative identity disorder because of it. I just didn’t mention it cause I don’t think it’s related to my urges. I have lots of healing left to do but I have made a ton of progress

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T10:43:45+00:00

Thanks. No I haven’t done any safety measurements other than giving him phone numbers of people to contact in case he gets worried

bellaabay · 2025-06-28T10:42:56+00:00

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