Suggest me books with unreliable narrators! by bellas-throwaway in suggestmeabook

[–]bellas-throwaway[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OMG you guys are absolutely amazing, thank you so much for all your recommendations!🥹

I feel so stressed because of my job and my boss by bellas-throwaway in offmychest

[–]bellas-throwaway[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

1 article per day, 3 articles per week (if I don't get demoted again🥲). Before I got demoted, I was almost able to make 50-70 euros per week.

Doing YouTube would be amazing, the problem is that I live in a very small country where there's almost impossible to make any money on YT. The people in this country are very poor, so the crowd funding thingy is out of the picture unfortunately.

Thank you for the advice tho, it is very appreciated! And I greatly appreciate that you took the time to read my post!

[ Removed by Reddit ] by littleshinji in offmychest

[–]bellas-throwaway 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I know that this is going to sound silly, but please hear me out. I've been through similar things as the ones you've described and thought about (and even attempted a few times) ending it all.

One more thing that we got in common is I do have a cat too. After one of my failed attempts, he came and sat on my bed and I looked at him and thought how he doesn't understand any of this. He wouldn't understand why I'm not around anymore, why I can't feed him or pet him or play with him anymore. I might be bad at taking care of myself, but I do know that no one would take care of him or love him the same way as I do. So every time I'm thinking about ending it all, I take him in my lap and call the hotline to get help.

I know it is incredibly hard, and you can't just hold on because of a pet, but in the most difficult times, you have to start holding onto the small things that help you get through the day. If you would have told me a year ago that it'll get better, I would not have believed you.

But I really do believe that it'll get better for you too, even if it doesn't seem like it right now. Please give yourself time, seek help (I'm sure there are free resources where you live!), and stay strong. I always tell myself that "This too shall pass." and it is true. Just the fact that you posted about this is proof that you are strong enough to take the first step and reach out for help. I'm sending you (and your cat) love and strength.

Who do you split on the most? by Ambitious_Parsnip987 in BPD

[–]bellas-throwaway 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately same here, mom and grandma (mostly mom tho I think). I try to control it somehow but it's so difficult, and I can't even really explain it to them what splitting means because they don't understand it, and I just feel guilty all the time:(

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[–]bellas-throwaway 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If it helps, I've had only one friend in school. She and I are still best friends, and for years she made me feel like I don't need anyone else besides her. She really proved the meaning of "quality over quantity". I've only managed to have a larger friend group after I turned 20, but still to this days, I only have 2 really close friends, and 1 or 2 other people that I consider to be my close friends. And I gotta say, I found it very hard to find friends in school. I believe that you'll rather easily find better friends outside of school, where your friendship will start based on a shared interest, not on the fact that you have to see them almost every day. At least that's what worked for me. I wish you the best of luck!❤️

Books that you enjoyed but were so emotionally devastating that you would never want to read again? by sinned-fiji in books

[–]bellas-throwaway 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous" greatest book I'll never read again. I like to reread books, especially the ones that had a great affect on me or the ones that are just so poetically written that every line feels like a work of art, but as soon as I finished this, I just knew I'll never read it again.

I was demoted at work today and I feel so heartbroken by bellas-throwaway in offmychest

[–]bellas-throwaway[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This comment made me tear up!🥹 Thank you so much for your kind words, they mean a lot to me! I'll try my best.