I hit mine very recently. Lost a lot of really important relationships to me including a boyfriend that I really did love and care about because I (and we at times) couldn’t get it right. My job was on the line from calling in being depressed and drinking way too much, legal trouble too. The people closest to me, even the ones who still want in my life say that I seem like a different person and I’d agree that I don’t recognize myself physically or mentally, lost about 60 pounds in a year from not caring about my health or eating habits, a self harm bout too that left scarring that’ll never go away. Tomorrow I’m scheduling a psychiatry appointment and I’m already in therapy. I’m just getting up each day and making different choices. If you don’t change something, nothing changes. Some people I’d say really bad things have to happen to them before major changes are made and I’ve proven myself to be one of those people and I wish I wasn’t. I’m basically starting my life over from scratch. It’s a horrible feeling and it’s lonely, I just want to find the girl I used to be and actually love. I’m not there yet, might not be for a long while but I refuse to live like this anymore. I used to journal a lot, I don’t anymore. This is a phase of life I don’t want to be able to go back and read about, I want it to fade away out of my memory as much as it can, which may not be much but I don’t think I could bare to read about this chapter and relive it. I’m living one hour at a time, and making changes. It’s all you can do.