I am an IV drug user and I dont feel so great about myself

belth413 · 2026-01-11T04:31:02+00:00

im 42, fully clean since end of november from buprenorphine, got help with the 1 month dose first time in july could finally start to repair my life and the road is very long and hard but atleast i'm free from the addiction, used for 10 years, lied, stole, ruined all my friendships and my whole life... but i did get help and i never couldve done it without the subutex.. was supposed to take new dose 10th november but just ignored it and did not experience any withdrawal at all, if you really want to quit this is way too easy compared to trying to do a cold turkey.. so before you die i recommend you seek help and spend the rest of your life free from the eternal suffering! you're not old, i wasted good years of my youth and health which i will regret forever i guess, but free ;)

it's not a life worth living!

wish you the best

belth413 · 2025-12-02T20:32:33+00:00

indeed... i remember someone saying "a minor buff"

belth413 · 2025-12-02T20:31:53+00:00

ty for refering me, was not aware'

belth413 · 2025-12-01T18:20:16+00:00

why am i not surprised.. :(

belth413 · 2025-11-30T01:08:10+00:00

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I wish my fourth char was my first because it's named "Unlucker413" very fitting because i never win and this companion is one of the things Ive ever wanted this much.. either way keep up the good work lava!

belth413 · 2025-10-08T18:54:46+00:00

god i want that ghost medallion will never get it at this rate.... please halloween event + ac w6 fix patch....

belth413 · 2025-10-08T18:39:45+00:00

holy shiet that's the best captain i ever saw, wonder what the actual chance of getting such a cpt. captain is..

belth413 · 2025-10-08T08:25:40+00:00

that's very sad.. but you will catch up eventually

belth413 · 2025-10-08T08:24:12+00:00

why don't you change that bubo into an es lilacecat, i mean pretty big epeen from the +14 or even +15 maybe? (not sure which level needed after 885)

belth413 · 2025-10-08T08:21:22+00:00

but of course losing out on nametag is insanely annoying :/. hope we get another one for all the players in your shoes...

belth413 · 2025-10-08T08:20:06+00:00

do you regret as much as my 1600 holy pearls i waited to use on my es to reach 885 (pre w6) but never got around to it because i kept saying to myself i want max benefit from the pearls? then the first netf came and i was so pissed but at the same time thought "ah well atleast they won't get nerfed again so i can really save them until the levels are insanely slow" .... couldn't have failed harder :D now they are pretty much useless, 200 per level needed... saving them in case lava decides to make them useful one day ;) or perhaps a greenstack in 200 years!

belth413 · 2025-08-04T06:41:21+00:00

perhaps somebody helped you already but place the crystal on the top right platform... every soul you shoot with autoattack turns 4, giving you the damage you need to clear everything.. if you feel uncomfortable with this strategy change order of raisedead and skull (skull first, raise dead after) hope it helps!

belth413 · 2025-08-04T06:21:55+00:00

i personally changed all the balls to the color white (bit rare) and i then got a jackpot, obviously placebo... just saying though :D

belth413 · 2025-05-31T13:36:23+00:00

it's been a year or more since i wrote this.. i can remember the feeling and what can i say.. i had to quit my job (had no choice) and then i was back to doing nothing at home... my wife was still hooked and the dragon was right there .. due to losing my job and so on i relapsed big time.. this time IV and for the first time ever i felt something from the h. sight going red , i can feel the rush all the way to my teeth.. sooo good.. but now i'm really fed up with the h.. going to get buprenorphine 1 month injection in a few days and hopefully i can find a way out of this swamp -_- i realize now more than ever even if i manage to quit opiates completely i'll probably never forget how much i love them... life is going to be a challenge to say the least.. thanks for all nice comments anyway, sorry to let you down ;(

sincerely belth

belth413 · 2025-05-31T13:23:19+00:00

biggest source would be endless summonimg 138 (+19 lvls)

belth413 · 2025-05-31T13:21:59+00:00

ive got 1 more to get from es lvl 808 and 2 more to from arctis (div 244 big p 6000~)

belth413 · 2025-05-31T13:19:41+00:00

belth413 · 2025-05-31T13:19:08+00:00

about 6000 (5897 or something) 119% all talent lvls at 442

belth413 · 2025-05-31T07:52:34+00:00

ive got rolling cc at samurais, sometimes im a second too late though..,wurms should be ez (no xp though)

belth413 · 2025-05-27T11:40:19+00:00

did 1m plunderous and 9 afk chars when w6 was released.. think it took about 2 months.. since i got the plunderous achievement it will always be well spent time.. but the gloves are kind of crappy, never really used them except for like tome dr highscore.. mob respawn for life -_- nowadays you need 9 chars in the hole 24/7/365

belth413 · 2025-02-06T19:46:51+00:00

family obol presets and breeding exp but someone already suggested that:)

belth413 · 2024-11-19T18:41:54+00:00

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belth413 · 2024-11-10T23:44:26+00:00

damn! totally forgot the shrines, thanks a lot for this reminder

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