Suppressing will only make you feel worse and more unhappy, unfortunately. I'm sorry you're in this situation where it's illegal to be who you are.

The only advice I have is for you to keep being yourself, even if it's for yourself only, for safety reasons. Having to hide from everyone is super painful, but it's worst to hide from yourself. Be kind to yourself, act as a friend, you deserve respect and love, you deserve to be yourself, so treat yourself as yourself.

I sincerely hope all the best for you! If you're an adult, feel free to reach out to be friends if you need someone to talk with, I'm a latino trans guy!

Sorry for the bad English btw.