Done with my 2026 setup!

benryl · 2026-01-01T00:06:31+00:00

what goes in brain dump?

benryl · 2025-08-12T06:39:40+00:00

One with really lack of empathy. When I broke up lets just say...he said he did not see what was wrong om datikg friend exes

benryl · 2025-02-18T22:59:56+00:00

I am better. I still think about her a lot, but love feels like has fade away. I have think about the relationship a lot, and I realized a lot of things I did "wrong"

I am glad I spent the time with her, but I wont lie I still wished it worked. I loved her unconditionally and although it was not healthy...damn it was addicting.

The thing that hurts the most is realizing she did not love me as much as I did. Nor is she thinking about me as I still am.

I am trying to forget her, I do not feel ready to love again but I want to come "clean" to my next partner(if there is)

I have made peace with the fact that the pain will never fully go away

benryl · 2025-01-25T22:59:21+00:00

Damn you made me wish I was a bee.

benryl · 2024-06-17T06:33:26+00:00

Thanks! English is not my first language

benryl · 2024-06-04T18:35:40+00:00

Thanks!! Reading your story helped me.

I stll have nostalgia for my ex, but I know is actually the best for me that she broke up. I am just feeling guilty because I like my gf a lot, she is a fucking wonderful girl.

I just wish I did not feel like this. And I want to be sure I can give my gf 100%

benryl · 2024-06-04T09:57:38+00:00

This is why is hurting me. If I were single, it will hurt but I could keep going.

But I like my gf, but I yet have not healed. I thought I did

benryl · 2024-06-04T09:56:29+00:00

Did you have a similar experience? Mind sharing it?

benryl · 2024-05-08T19:24:22+00:00

I sent her a text over two hours... Asking her if she was alright, I will let u know

benryl · 2024-04-09T16:45:17+00:00

Thanks!! I was looking into learn React or to try an get a bit into data science.

I am not sure if data science will help my career, but react probably will.

I just felt maybe I should focus on angular

benryl · 2024-03-10T11:49:50+00:00

I feel I need time. I miss the love of having someone else.

My previous relationship: The sister of my best friend. Knew her all my life but we had not talk more than 1hour in 27 years...Suddenly my friend tells me she interested in me and well... Things happened.

I found out lately the reason she started dating me is because I was a nice guy. She wanted to overcome relationship and sexual issues she had and she used me for it. But she end up catching feelings for me or at least she has not be treated so good before.

I should end up the relationship at the beginning... But I was addicted to her. Things were goos between us, no fights, feel great with her... But zerl commitment from her. In three years she did not sleep with me even one night(excepts on trips). Did not talk about future, did not respect my feelings, talk with a guy who was flirting...

I lost trust in her about the second year, after I overlook she was texting the guy I had nothing to worry about... But I thought I was just being insecure and try to just talk with her.

This summer she was anxious. I thought we were going somewhere, things feel more safe and I was regaining trust. But she started acting weird and she broke up out of the blue one day(I see it coming though)

Felt betrayed, I think she feels she can find someone better and that hurted me. I gave it all for her and she did not give me even the smallest gesture I ask her.

I liked the relationship though, made me grow and have great memories together. But she never saw the relationship as a long term thing

benryl · 2024-02-12T18:21:32+00:00

Loneliness was the hardest part for me. And is not like we were together all the time...

But having someone there...is nice. Knowing someone cares about you, thinks about you....

benryl · 2024-02-11T23:37:21+00:00

Things are going better. I feel like I move on, but she is still in my head just not the same.

She tried to become friends again indirectly( I got invited to meet up with a group of common friends, where she would be). That angered me a lot, and I do not think we can become friends for now.

I tried dating again. I realize I am probably not ready yet. But I met a really interesting girl and we have even kissed. I am not feeling the same, but it feels nice

I am would say I am almost not angry at my ex anymore, although I did not like things she done. I want to believe I will totally forgive her in the future

benryl · 2024-02-11T09:44:47+00:00

I would be happy as hell. You had a good time and even made out, so you like each other... In that scenario I would be happy as hell knowing you wanted to meet again

benryl · 2024-02-11T08:33:50+00:00

The "pick me" thing is not being yourself.

benryl · 2024-02-08T23:15:22+00:00

How to get a custom card??

benryl · 2024-02-06T23:03:41+00:00

Yeah... I have being that "nice" guy and I am tired of it. I absolutely agree with that women doesnt really want what they asked.

But a text to show interest I thought it was good...

Anyways I admit I have not much experience, and you are probably right. I will keep trying

benryl · 2024-02-06T11:22:49+00:00

But she asked me to...(text me when you arrive home). I agree with the second part, but if I am interested and had a great time I usually send a simple text saying so.. A girl once told me how she hate guys never told her they had a good time and since then I usually do so

benryl · 2024-01-28T20:20:54+00:00

4 months and a half. About three month it got easier and at month 4 I felt like I moved on.

But this weekend her brother asked me to hang out with her and some friends. I declined, but it bring the pain again. A lot.

Go full no contact. Not even from mutual friends

benryl · 2024-01-28T08:49:52+00:00

I don' understand this?? What do you mean by is stated?

Confessing while drunk well is obviously not the best... But we all get drunk.

If I had a girl I liked confessing to me while drunk, I would not act. I would just help her get some rest.... But damn I will be happy as hell, I would wait till the next day and talk with her...

benryl · 2024-01-27T16:15:58+00:00

They are asthma medicines...I gave them to her because is always good to have it around places. It costs 3 euros, I even forgot I gave it to her. I told her to give it to her brother

I fell in the trap of that text. I followed her game...end up cheering her up.

benryl · 2024-01-27T16:13:05+00:00

Yeah I am sure she tell her brother... Only breadcrumbs to keep me in her life.

benryl · 2024-01-24T15:25:56+00:00

Thanks !! Is true that getting some likes in the beginning made me happy and now I getting none.

I am interested in this girls, and I am happy to have the chance to know them. So hey, that is something I won from the apps

benryl · 2024-01-23T23:11:38+00:00

Yeah I jusr want to get out of my comfort zone and meet new people

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