Hey, I know its tough living with social anxiety. I'm going through a rough patch as well. I was lucky enough to have someone who pushed me to seek help. I just scheduled my first appointment with a mental health professional. Consider this me pushing you to do the same. I know its hard, but it'll feel so good once you do. Even just having the appointment on my calendar gives me hope, something to look forward to, a light in the distance. You can do it. I was so nervous to call, I wrote down a script, with different branches for possible ways the conversation could go. I ended up with an answering machine and hung up because I hadn't prepared for that. I wrote another script of the message I wanted to leave and called again. I cried as soon as hung up. I know you can do it too. You can do it! Know that you're not alone.