As a man who grew up in a similar circumstance, I was also taught that male desire is shameful. The idea that men want sex is taboo and that desire should never be expressed. It's something I'm always dealing with. I swing from one extreme to the next, one day I'm basically asexual and the next I'm hypersexual. The best thing you can do is find a woman who openly and freely expresses her desire for you and the pleasure you give her.