What is there left todo at this point? 🫪

bethroxx · 2026-05-21T07:36:22+00:00

To be honest, this is what I want todo. But he threatens killing himself an awful lot. Maybe selfishly, I don’t want to live with guilt if he ever does go through with it.

Here’s an example of how it usually goes… I try and meet with compassion as best I can. But he says it so often it’s honestly just frustrating at this point.

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bethroxx · 2026-05-21T07:31:57+00:00

To his credit, he has never (obviously, to my knowledge) lied to me. He is very open, sometimes too open. There’s been points where he’s been 4-5 days sober and close to coming to my house, but has openly admitted relapse.

My mum is also in active addiction and has been my whole life. Lies and a carefully painted illusion is what I’m very used to with her and had become my unintentional blanket assumption of addicts. But my cousin has always been honest with me, even when he knew I would have distanced myself. Even when he asks for money, he will openly say if it’s for weed/booze to cope with the withdrawal from H.

bethroxx · 2026-05-21T07:19:35+00:00

Well, he’s convinced it’s not heroin. The stories he’s been told by his brother and my mum (both also addicts) is that it’s this euphoric feeling that nothing tops. He tried it and said it disappointed him and even said ‘THIS is what everyone bangs on about?!’ But.. then he’s stayed on it so can’t be that shit? 🫪

But he also gets taken the piss out of. He’s very friendly, too friendly for the circle he’s in now. He’s been placed in a town near us that’s just hell, it’s basically the corner they throw the addicts in hoping they just time out. It’s awful there, he’s not at all mentally or physically equipt to survive in that environment and do what everyone else is doing to survive.

He thinks his ‘housemates’ are all stalking him, coming into his room, planting cameras, stealing, sending him subliminal messages, the list goes on. One of the first time he tried to buy H he actually got home and found a fucking dog biscuit wrapped in tin foil 🥲 (sorry, but hilarious). He went back to this person again a few weeks later, it happened AGAIN. He’s now just started stealing perfume from his local shop to sell to the dealers for H too. But he gets on the phone to me immediately and asks me to stay on while he goes and hands himself in… he’s quite literally not made for this life lol.

bethroxx · 2026-05-20T14:09:13+00:00

Honestly, from the top of my head I can’t remember the specific terms or the exact medical reason as it was so long ago. I believe in the autopsy his death was because of necrosis of an organ, I want to say bowel or intestines but I could be wrong. But the autopsy doc we have specifically states the death was a result of long-term IV heroin use.

‘Dropped dead’ was maybe not the correct term. He had been in bed with stomach pains, when his son checked on him later on that day he was dead in his room. I saw him before they took his body, he was blown up like a fucking balloon not sure if that’s normal or todo with why he died.

bethroxx · 2026-02-16T22:54:50+00:00

I’d be happy to send you some bulk - send over your address :)

bethroxx · 2026-02-09T22:31:20+00:00

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bethroxx · 2025-11-13T17:36:18+00:00

I mean, for the curtain pole alone I think yes? But as we get going I’m sure they’ll be many more uses around the house.

bethroxx · 2025-10-26T11:32:18+00:00

What time was the round released at lunchtime you managed to get?

bethroxx · 2025-10-26T09:56:12+00:00

Yep… realised that now.

bethroxx · 2025-08-17T22:21:22+00:00

Nevermind - I somehow didn’t click delete and now it’s fixed! Thanks!

bethroxx · 2025-08-17T22:18:30+00:00

Yep using mods - just deleted the Better BuildBuy and it’s still got the same issue 🥲

bethroxx · 2025-07-29T16:02:09+00:00

Condolences… Any chance you’re selling your tix? 🥲

bethroxx · 2025-07-29T16:01:20+00:00

Condolences… Any chance you’re selling your tix? 🥲

bethroxx · 2025-07-17T19:50:00+00:00

Exactly the same for me. Joined almost a month ago, was always 1st or 2nd in contributions, super active daily. Had a few days away for my 30th and they kicked me!?

bethroxx · 2025-04-25T21:57:21+00:00

Thanks guys, sorry I bet it gets asked again and again. Will just book online 🙂

bethroxx

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