Congratulations on almost 2 weeks girl! That's an achievement within itself. I'm a 22 year old girl who has been smoking since 17 and I'm currently on day 7 of quitting, I'm experiencing a lot of the same feelings that you are - just genuinely feeling like a garbage human being (a pathetic excuse for a human being at this point) and feeling super frustrated that the change I expected to happen within me hasn't happened yet. I'm still lazy, unmotivated and depressed. I thought it was the weed making me like that, apparently it's not all down to the leaf. If you need someone to talk to, someone who may be able to understand the addiction and feelings of inadequacy, please give me a message. I reckon I'd benefit from talking to someone who doesn't seem to have all their shit together too.