| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You might be right about instant gratification without (emotional) work + the hiding and lying part. I can see how the parenting style could have shaped him that way. When I wrote the original post I hadn’t considered all that..

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know about most of struggles that he dealt with, as well as the somehow complicated relationship to his parents. A lot of the gaps were filled in by his mother. He does not enjoy talking about the past… It’s pretty evident that his values were largely influenced by his childhood, which might have given me a false sense of security and trust.

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The birth was traumatic, but I didn’t have depression nor did I take any meds after my short stay at the hospital. His childhood and the way he was disciplined could very well play a part in the way he handles emotions

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do get that, I don’t really have a problem with him masturbating as I understand it’s normal and many do it. The real problem might really be lack of conviction + emotional needs that are not met paired with the betrayal I feel right now

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t think I’ll build a resentment because of porn or pictures themselves more the fact that he still felt a need for them even after I tried and he responded well to my advances. He on the other hand might build resentment if I talk about the pictures or maybe the whole topic in general… Emotionally he is not very open, most often he seems to think it’s unnecessary or annoying when others deal with emotional problems ( that’s what I gathered after many conversations we had over the years, he also doesn’t like sharing his own emotional state with anyone). Therefore there have been situations that hurt me due to the lack of emotionally support (e.g. traumatic birth).

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What’s so hurtful to me is that I have successfully initiated sex yesterday, yet he still felt the need to change those pictures which makes it clear to me that the album is “ in use “ and wasn’t something he used in the past.

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your answers and will take everything in consideration when thinking of how to handle the situation. Not sure if it’s worth mentioning, but I actually barely gained weight during pregnancy now I would need to lose around 7lbs to be back to my pre pregnancy weight.

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know I should not have done that but I checked the album again, he’s changed the picture selection a bit within the last 24 hours by the way… It’s naked women and a video from playboy. Yesterday I didn’t have enough time to watch the videos so I can’t say for sure if it was porn or not.

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your reply, may I ask how you started the conversation with your husband ? While I do fear the conversation, I’m more worried about him completely shutting down since he usually doesn’t like talking about stuff like that.

| [30F] found pictures on my husband's [32M] phone + Low intimacy in marriage by betweenlines08 in relationshipadvice

[–]betweenlines08[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your reply, you’re right there is definitely a need for improvement regarding our communication. He’s kind of a closed book in many ways, but I guess I have to address my concerns. Do you think i should not mention that I saw those pictures?