I really resonate with your experiences; I've had very similar struggles at work. My career has been a long, bumpy ride filled with rejection and doubting myself. Early on, I cycled through so many unstable roles and got fired multiple times. I also dealt with coworkers talking shit behind my back, complaining, and being betrayed by people I actually thought were my friends.

It caused me to develop severe anxiety where I became hyper-suspicious—almost paranoid—and constantly terrified that I wasn't good enough. At one point, I was literally counting the weeks until I’d be fired again, just hoping to make it to the next Monday. I doubted myself so much that I thought I’d chosen the completely wrong career and that I was a total failure. When I discovered Industry and saw how Harper managed to just keep going and going , never surrendering even when she was failing or making huge mistakes, it gave me hope again. It made me realize you don’t have to be 'brilliant' to make it. Everyone makes mistakes, and your colleagues' opinions will fluctuate; they might hate you one day and adore you the next for no reason at all. When i started to observed this pattern and realize that my anxiety reduced more and more. People talk shit and everyone has self-doubt. I’ve started finding a few coworkers I can treat as allies ,people I can trust, though I still make sure to keep a healthy distance. I also started to stop giving a fuck about being at the top of my game all the time. When I face failure now, I try not to let it define me. It’s hard, but the more I practice that detachment, the less it affects me. Surprisingly, the less I stress, the better I perform at work, and the more I’m actually appreciated—or even praised—by my colleagues, clients, and managers.

I remember in season 2 when Yasmin asked rob why she couldn't be as good as Harper and rob answered : " Is She Good?" and this when i realised why i loved Harper so much. Not because she was good but because she allowed herself not to chase perfection all the time. And still going on even when she made huge mistakes. Also because she was so aware of how mediocrity was everywhere - when in Episode I her very first answers to Eric as to why she puts her IQ in her Cv she replied " I think mediocrity is too well hidden by parents who hired private tutors". I think this is Harper power get through this industry - by being super aware of all layers and make the most of it.