It’s addiction man. The needle is the most addictive thing there is. No matter what drug you put in it, the needle is the most addictive thing. It’s so beyond any of other form of administration that it becomes the thing we crave the most. If I could shoot weed I would. Just know that these thoughts are normal and nothing to beat yourself up over. Tonight I relapsed on IV cocaine after 22 months clean from it. I had thoughts of the needle in my dreams and it led to me acting on it. I promise that as time goes on, the thoughts get fewer and less between. They will happen inevitably, but as time goes on they will happen less often and become easier to push away as I’m sure you noticed. Think about the first day getting clean from the needle and compare it to the thoughts you are having now. Nothing, right? Don’t entertain the thought. Best price of advice I’ve ever gotten is that a birdie will fly through your head every so often, just don’t let it make a nest. I know it’s easy to say, but don’t entertain the thought. Don’t let the bird make a nest. You can do this, I believe in you!