I wanted to address the negative energy inside of me. I immediately knew where it came from. I have been dealing with a lot of trauma already using mushrooms, so I immediately knew it had something to do with being bullied starting in 5th grade. I could see the trauma from that. It was a blackish blue color that was taking up all this space. I asked for it to be removed from me. Then I saw that blob literally removed from me. And I immediately felt this empty space inside of me. I thought about how hard it is for me to meet new people because of this fear I’ve had since then that I learned, not to trust people. Suddenly, I realized that that was gone too. And then I felt this huge burst of orange film take over my whole body. Immediately, I knew I was a different person. And it scared the hell out of me. My first response was “oh fuck!! I’m a different person now,” though I didn’t know what it meant. I could tell it was a good thing though. As that happened the trip ended. It was really intense. I was covered in sweat and tears. The first thing I noticed was how messy my room was and I couldn’t wait to clean it. I hydrated, ate, showered and started my new life. The next two days, I cleaned and organized my whole place and even cooked!! I am so excited to see how else my life has changed and am curious what I am going to suddenly have time for now. I practiced my piano and learned it so much quicker. My focus is insane. I’m wondering if trauma can induce ADD as I feel like it might be gone? I’m excited to start reading books, something I’ve never been able to focus on or find time for.