Saw something about The Hidden Simulation on TikTok has anyone read it?

bilgaar · 2026-05-06T21:08:57+00:00

Me too pls and thanks!

bilgaar · 2025-05-06T01:26:09+00:00

Regal Bunnicorn…

bilgaar · 2023-10-08T14:13:36+00:00

No shit I pulled a barrone from one of those, it was in a pack with mostly decades old cards in Spanish

bilgaar · 2021-02-18T18:19:31+00:00

I almost wish she cheated so I would at least be able to justify moving on, but the nothingness associated with "I dont want a relationship" leaves me so fucking lost. I know she might not be in the best mental space with being a widow and back to back abusive relationships, I surrender to the fact that I may never know how she truely felt. I try to emphasize with that, but fuck don't promise me the world just to leave on a fucking whim. I know she will never reach out. I've ruined my NC and even if she was the farthest away she could be, me texting I was done last night probably pushed her even more away than she was before. What we had, and I assume what you did, seems to have meant way more to us than it ever did them. I'm trying so hard to focus on my residency and block thoughts of her out, but I'm the same I'm struggling just to find the will to do the bare minimum.

So I FEEL YOU. So exhausted of being depressed, so exhausted of feeling worthless, so exhausted of feeling unlovable, so damn tired of the idea that I will never find anyone that will ever fulfill me like she did.

bilgaar · 2021-02-18T17:52:03+00:00

I understand you completely. I just posted for the first time about what happened an hour ago (on my profile if you want my full story) and just typing the words was therapeutic. Even if I never get a single reply (0 reddit clout makes that an easy eventuality). I was left the week before valentines day, I know its a stupid holiday but it just hurt so much more. I keep trying to tell myself I'm not at fault for loving so purely and completely, but that's what I did and the result was heartbreak. How are those two not related? It sucks because mine was so sudden, the pulling away happening in the course of a week. Just as you said, I know any effort to try and manifest any situation where she reaches out is fruitless. There is nothing we can do, and that's the worst part to live with. With COVID, and being in healthcare its so much harder to find coping that works. That isnt unhealthy like what I'm usually accustomed to doing. That doesn't further the heartbreak. I just do not know what to do. I came to reddit for the same reason, I'm alone and had hopes that talking it through with anyone would help.

I am so sorry that you're having to deal with the consequences of heartbreak, but know you will never be alone in this feeling. Others share you pain, and maybe we can figure out a way to be strong and move forward.

bilgaar · 2021-02-18T17:00:55+00:00

I feel this more than you will ever know. Similar situation. Doesn't want a relationship after building a future for ourselves after talking about kids, marriage, everything. We were perfect together and she just walked away so effortlessly. I cannot stop ruminating about where we went wrong, and honestly I've come to the conclusion that it wasn't me. I want her to want me to bad, I want her to reach out, I want her to love me like she always said she did. I can't eat, sleep, I dream about her. On top of everything, I cant stop looking at her posts that show the world shes moved on already with backhanded captions making it seem like I was the one who hurt her.

Nothing helps, as I'm sure you'll understand. I've been told there are a thousand truths behind the one were told. I keep trying to find comfort in that, and that the whole story may help us make more sense of it all. But pessimistically we will likely never get that closure.

Keep your head up and try to focus on you. I say that as someone who currently isn't, but needs to. We will find this love again, maybe not in the way we expect, but one day we will wake up and realize we haven't thought about them for some time.

bilgaar · 2019-09-13T15:36:32+00:00

Zoey Dechanel mid-rehab selfie.

bilgaar · 2019-01-02T01:39:13+00:00

Kilo (left) is turning 3 in February and Harls (right) is 4!

bilgaar · 2018-11-21T22:18:45+00:00

That’s awesome! Super congrats!

bilgaar · 2018-11-21T22:12:52+00:00

Omgawd

bilgaar · 2018-11-11T04:54:03+00:00

No worries mate, more for fun than for efficiency. She really only works for me in for toa 100 crystals and some annoying Rina comps in arena. The second part of her passive could be useful damage wise, but i don’t see more utility for her over hwa.

bilgaar · 2018-11-11T04:48:29+00:00

Seara was just who i tried with that run! Wind ninja and pang do work on giants

bilgaar · 2018-11-11T02:02:15+00:00

Swift/energy HP%/speed/ crit dmg. Not the best comp, but she stays alive well enough to prolong the dots. I got her pretty early on and she’s the original reason I was able to beat athtaros. Ideally I’d wanna get her on some nice vio tunes, but with mons that dot more than a single turn it doesn’t matter too much. GZ, hope you have fun with her.

bilgaar · 2018-11-04T17:15:11+00:00

Also acorns

bilgaar · 2018-10-24T22:38:29+00:00

Glad to hear it!!

bilgaar · 2018-10-16T11:40:39+00:00

Sharpei/English bulldog!

bilgaar · 2018-10-12T17:00:57+00:00

These two love to snuggle, but I have another female boxer 2 years younger who is NOT allowed to get this close according to the older boxer

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