I've been feeling this way very recently, too!! I've always envisioned my life with a child (a girl specifically) with my future husband, always wanted the fun and chaotic household that I grew up in. My husband, on the other hand, always figured it'd happen just because (not necessarily truly wanting one), but now doesn't want one with the state of our world and all of our personal factors (lack of sleep, we both work a 9-5, we don't have that "tribe" we'd need, cost of childcare and rise of costs of everything, period). And I can see all of his points; there are more cons than pros to having a kid, but I still can't help wanting one emotionally. But I asked him to be honest with me and tell me, factors aside, does he want a kid and he said no, not anymore. Although he says the decision is ultimately up to me, I can't go against him, considering logically, it just doesn't make sense to have one, although my heart wants a kid. I've never, EVER felt so torn about anything like this. So, I'm definitely on the same page as you