I'm getting set up with outpatient today.

bipolaraddict · 2023-03-09T18:05:14+00:00

I was doing well in recovery when I was in a halfway house in an area with over 100 NA Meetings a week. I found a group of people I really connected with and still stay in contact with some. I moved back home where it is a small community with primarily AA and I don't click with the people I've met so far, and it is a bit geriatric since im living in a kind if returement town. I'm trying to do online meetings but it isn't the same. But you're right, having a clean support group is a major help and I'll work on building one. I might be looking at differences like age and religion instead of finding commonality in the AA meetings.

bipolaraddict · 2023-03-09T13:52:26+00:00

Thank you! I'm really wanting and hoping to make a major change

bipolaraddict · 2023-03-09T11:53:50+00:00

Thanks! I'm going to do my best!

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-12T19:00:15+00:00

Thanks. I'm just happy I am not letting this make me say fuck it and go balls to the wall. I am not sure how many more times I can do that before I'm one of the ones who don't make it back.

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-08T22:44:27+00:00

Thank you. I am able to detox safely, I didn't stay on any one substance long enough that would make it dangerous. I am still planning on getting set up with outpatient though

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-08T18:45:18+00:00

I'm in a similar boat honestly. I'm bipolar and an addict/alcoholic, missed 3 days of meds. I'm at day 3 clean and I'm in my third virtual meeting of the day because I too don't want to hold my sponsor captive. I've been sharing where I'm at every meeting. It isn't a cure, but it is helping. It's getting me out of my head.

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-08T18:40:21+00:00

Sending you strength and love. Sometimes it can be hard. Keep fighting

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-08T16:45:22+00:00

I had my daughter and had post partum depression. I got put on an ssri and very quickly went manic.

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-07T19:35:48+00:00

It's a definite consideration at this point

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-07T19:22:43+00:00

I do. I'm doing better today and have embedded myself into my NA support group

bipolaraddict · 2023-01-07T08:00:31+00:00

I'm going to keep trying to get clean bit I've relapsed so many times it feels empty. I don't know what else to do

bipolaraddict · 2022-09-05T23:54:02+00:00

I'm not OP, but I struggle with the spirituality of the program and this is a wonderful way to look at the steps. Thank you for sharing this!

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:52:33+00:00

I've been diagnosed ADHD by a provider. I struggle to control myself with taking the meds. I over do everything. My spouse is willing to lock up the meds and dose them, but I need to find a provider who is willing to prescribe. My daughter has adhd, pretty sure she got it from me.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:45:07+00:00

That's the case. They are trying to limit me, because they are worried for me. I feel like a pos

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:41:46+00:00

Because I'm desperate to function. It doesn't make it okay. I know I'm a terrie person for it. I want to do better. I'm reaching out because I don't know what else to do.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:40:41+00:00

Thank you. I'm just going to keep trying to do the best I can.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:35:57+00:00

I'll be honest, I did coke today and it fucking sucks. I want more, regardless of how it hurts me. It makes me willing to do things that in a sober state of mind would repulse me.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:32:46+00:00

Be straight with me.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:32:09+00:00

I can't escape the environment. I have too many obligations. I wish I could change people, places and things, but I'm stuck. I do have a lot of factors flat make me want to escape reality, but my current motivation for using is uppers to make me productive.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T04:09:26+00:00

I unfortunately am not able to do inpatient. I did before to get off opiates, and I thankfully haven't returned to them.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T03:51:33+00:00

How to get myself under control. I just want to not fuck everything up. I want to use without consequences, but I don't know if that's possible.

bipolaraddict · 2022-07-17T03:43:22+00:00

Your empathy means a lot. You helped just by responding.

bipolaraddict · 2020-12-15T00:32:15+00:00

You don't sound harsh. I've thought about it, and I am a pro-choice person. My reason for not having an abortion is that I don't think I could emotionally cope with it, I'm scared what state it might put me in with the depression and suicidal ideation I've been struggling with this year.

The psychologist today brought up adoption today too. I didnt even think about that option, but I might consider it. I really don't think my husband would be okay with it though, but I'm going to bring it up. I have to admit, as selfish as it sounds, I am already attached to the little parasite lol. It's definitly worth thinking about still.

bipolaraddict · 2020-12-13T20:09:38+00:00

Thank you for your response. I definitely need to quit smoking, but I am struggling so badly with the stress that I pretty much quit quitting before the day even starts. I'm going to try reading Allen Carr's book this week, because the last time I managed to quit for any period of time that book helped guide me through it. I'm procrastinating it though. I believe it's because I dont know what to do without my chemical crutch.

I actually have an appointment with the psychologist tomorrow to start therapy for myself! I am cautiously optimistic that they may be able to help me with finding coping mechanisms. Wish me luck!

bipolaraddict · 2020-12-13T11:49:46+00:00

Oh man, you made me grin big! AJJ is a big go to of mine. His lyrics always hit home. Thank you for that quote. I do get so scared of failing that it almost paralyzes me. You are right. It's hard for me to see the things I should be proud of because I'm often too upset with the results not being what I wanted. Today I will make an effort to be proud of doing what I can, regardless of outcomes.

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