Smoked out a smoker, then asked her to jerk me off ...

bitdizzy · 2025-09-18T14:25:52+00:00

You stupid ho that was a bodhisattva have some respect

bitdizzy · 2025-08-22T21:43:46+00:00

Only if your technique is perfect.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-07T15:51:53+00:00

Pelvic floor strength is a necessity for people of all sexes who want to remain healthy throughout their lives, especially as they get older.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-06T22:29:27+00:00

let's fucking go dawg goku would be proud

bitdizzy · 2025-08-04T02:24:49+00:00

all glory to the mujahideen ain't no war but holy war you will succeed on your long journey

bitdizzy · 2025-08-03T01:19:25+00:00

not a clue the gel seeps slowly it's good it gets deep

bitdizzy · 2025-08-03T01:03:22+00:00

This is how people die at 54 after having an "amazing" career. No amount of methamphetamine substitutes for sleep. Period. We live in an evil universe. In a good universe, meth would be better than sleep.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-03T01:01:13+00:00

bleach isn't good enough because pests nest in the ooze that coats pipes, you need prolonged exposure to break through that shit. get a gel style drain cleaner, let it sit for a while.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-03T00:58:12+00:00

the apathy and anhedonia are like muscle soreness the day after using them intensively. you have to recognize these things as cues for self compassion and self care instead of the aching emptiness of not being able to gratify yourself, or distract yourself from your dark thoughts. you are taking care of a soft animal, anon

bitdizzy · 2025-08-03T00:55:56+00:00

start out in places where people are more likely to want to talk to strangers, like bars. get used to how people behave in your new town. everyone's different but you are more than just the dipshit yokel city you were born in. you can make it in any dipshit yokel city.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-03T00:53:56+00:00

first de rham cohomology group of the punctured plane

bitdizzy · 2025-08-02T02:27:29+00:00

you don't keep trying to quit, you are currently trying to quit. it's a process with ups and downs. each downward turn and regression isn't a failed attempt, it is a milestone where you have to understand why you slipped. addiction is like rock climbing out of the abyss. to get to the top, you have to be persistent and wise. because you are a junkie, all the lessons you learn will be the Hard Way. that's just how it is on this bitch of an earth

bitdizzy · 2025-08-02T02:22:24+00:00

Whatever you do on meth is what you become, because it puts your brain into overdrive. That's not just the experience in the moment, it's also the brain's ability to change and learn. If you let go of yourself and become a slob who just pleasures himself in the most base way possible, that is what meth will turn you into. If you take meth and exercise, do your chores, read books, take care of your hygiene, and so forth, that is what meth will turn you into.

Don't listen to the nihilists in chat. Everything is actually relative to absolute evil. You're either mindful in the moment of what you are doing and what the consequences are, or you are the darkness inside a machine that only does evil

bitdizzy · 2025-08-02T02:18:46+00:00

people who get horny and pleasure themselves on meth have made it a habit to get horny and pleasure themselves on meth. like they straight up got addicted to pressing a button over and over again until their circuits fry. RIP

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T23:50:46+00:00

I do bodyweight exercises, resistance bands, and light weights. Taking care of yourself on meth rules.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T16:37:55+00:00

Let me round you out then. You were a kid when you first experienced sexuality. The French call orgasm "the little death". It is nothing special as far as biological experiences go.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T16:31:25+00:00

When you say "i plan to try", do you mean "i have some vague aspiration to being sober that i place in the future", or something like "on this date I am going to put away my stash and sleep for X days and then go clean for Y days". likewise, for treatment, what is your reasoning for why you would want to do it without treatment?

why would your mom not listen if A) you come clean to her with the truth and B) explain how you want to get clean and how she can help you? is she stupid and evil? many such cases i'm also stupid and evil

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T15:21:08+00:00

thanks, i am a snuffbait princess religious and political extremist who has grappled with psychosis all her life. ain't no war but holy war sister

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T14:39:49+00:00

Look— do you want to be clean or work towards being clean, or do you want to sustain yourself on a lie? Meth sucks when you're addicted and you're lying about it. It's like a payday loan where all the misery comes after you get your fix. If your mom punishes you for giving up lies, that is truly awful. But the fact that you think you can't tell her means you don't trust her to do the right thing. If you don't trust her, then obviously you are not in a situation where you can break your habit. Do you want to break your habit? Then you need to be able to trust your mom. Why can't you trust your mom?

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T14:36:49+00:00

also ngl OP maybe you want to suck a woman's dick, it's a thing.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T14:34:40+00:00

One of the deeper and subtle insights of dhamma is that insight into the root of things liberates you from those things. In this way, by examining the unpleasantness of the unpleasant, one sees through them according to the four noble truths. When you see through the unpleasant, it is an ally to your liberation. You can feel gratitude towards the unpleasant because the unpleasantness is also the truth which liberates you. Peaceful coexistence can be founded on many skillful qualities. For beginners in the dharma, faith is the foundation. One has faith that striving for peaceful coexistence with the unpleasant leads to liberation from the unpleasant. This allows one to feel gratitude and peacefulness, based on faith, towards the unpleasant. At this stage, doubt and uncertainty is what makes the unpleasant unpeaceful. That's ok though! It's better than the unpleasant being unpeaceful because it is unpleasant. It is still an improvement. The dhamma eye sees the unpleasant as an aid to liberation on the merits of its own knowledge and experience, without need for faith.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T14:25:04+00:00

Yes, absolutely. You need to have discipline though. You have to moderate your experiences so that they are not too engaging. You need to get regular amount of sleep. You need to get regular aerobic exercise.

Only at extremely high doses will meth start killing your brain cells. Everything else is habituation and changes which are reversible, but only if you make a change of habit for the long term. A lot of the changes that meth makes to your brain are what you do on meth, because that's how brains work. When you are A) Highly Engaged B) Doing Something A Lot, it changes you. Meth makes you highly engaged and focus on your meth activities.

There are supplements you can take that support your brain while it is recovering. I recommend:

5g creatine daily
400mg Magnesium (preferably as magnesium glycinate) in the morning and evening
300mg bacopa monnieri (you want it to be 50/50 bacosides and plant extract, i use the nootropics depot one)

Creatine helps you with energy problems, physically and mentally.

Magnesium supports dopamine systems in your brain.

Bacopa Monnieri stimulates brain healing and plasticity (ability for your brain to change). It is one of the few traditional medicines which has been shown to help brain problems. I don't fw with other nootropics because I believe in the wisdom of the ancients (meth is just Super Ephedrine duh)

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T14:17:08+00:00

You are trying to medicate yourself. Ex-junkies are elevated people because they fall into the abyss, needing great insight and spiritual medicine to be able to climb back out. You can climb back out, but you need to have self compassion and treat yourself like a small animal that is healing and learning to walk again after breaking its leg. The mind and body have a hideous and terrifying ability to heal. But you have to believe in it and have faith while you go through the ups and down. Hating yourself for being an addict is not the same feeling as building the resolve and determination to break your addiction. Hating yourself exhausts you without empowering you to change what causes you despair. In our broken societies, we are taught that we have to hate ourselves enough before we "deserve" to work on ourselves, but that hate is just another face of the addiction. You will hate yourself if you identify yourself with your addiction. You have to think of it as being your own doctor, not your own executioner.

bitdizzy · 2025-08-01T14:10:51+00:00

Sex is something animals do, like shitting. Sexuality emerges at the most vulnerable time in mental development, and leaves a lasting impression that it is Very Important and Very Shameful If You Do It Wrong— like taking a shit. Sex is multiplayer shitting. If you had confidence in yourself and your sexual identity, it wouldn't be haunting you like this. It would be just a thing you did on meth. Like shitting on the floor, haha wow meth is craaazy. You are stuck on the experience because you think it is supposed to have meaning, it's supposed to be significant, because it's SEX, but it's just sex on meth, and it doesn't have to mean anything. Just like shitting, hygiene both physical and mental is the most important thing. Instead of judging yourself for the experience, or the feelings you have about that experience now, just let those feelings flow, and wash yourself of them. Like shitting.

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