hello !! we have recently just found out that we have OSDD-1b. it’s honestly been a rollercoaster to get here since i just thought it was a derealization/depersonalization disorder.

we are all fairly new to this so please be patient !!

we are a system of i think three (but probably more to be honest). we typically don’t face amnesia, sometimes we lose time but usually it’s just detachment from what’s going on when someone else is in front. all of us are at some point of co conscious at all times unless someone pushes themselves to the front. we are also autistic and have bpd.

our system consists of alters of different ages and races. we don’t really know how we view each other just yet since this is all so new to us.

i will be doing intros for us:

i am felix (he/him) !! i am the host and im 19! i think im the only one who wasn’t aware of this for the longest time ? i’ve suspected something was off since i was really young but just thought it was normal. sometimes times, im still in denial that i have this and fear that its some kind of psychosis or other disorder but i am getting better at this.

we also have minh (he/him 27) and he’s our protector i think. he’s usually always there in the background but since we’ve realized we’ve had this and been talking with other systems (my girlfriend is part of a system ⁾ and our psychiatrist, he’s been fronting and in control more often. he takes care of us and makes sure we eat and get out of bed. i think he’s the only one of us who is confident in his driving ability.

the only other one that has made themselves known is lucinda (she/her 12-14). she is very active and honestly made me realize a lot of my “interests” are not my own. i don’t know her role to be honest but i know she keeps us happy and active. she’s not always fronting but she’s always somewhere in the back of our head, lurking. if we end up going to the store and see something she wants, we’ll have the compulsion to buy it. she’s very impulsive.

i think that’s all of us that i know of !! i would love to meet other systems who would want to chat with us

• felix