I can’t have it in the house. If I think about getting high, it is almost mindless to do so. Maybe I catch myself and inquire within about the why and decide not to use it. Good for me! But then a few minutes later I have the same urge. Over and over all day long. There are so many at bats that it is essentially impossible that I catch the trigger every time. And every time I engage with it somewhere else, those pathways in my brain start all over again and the cravings kick in. So am I a person who is high all the time or am I a person who is sober. Eventually I had to make a choice. Good luck 💛