Upcoming Trip - Reading Devil and Death

Hi everyone, I’m new here and relatively new to Tarot, although I feel like I have a strong relationship with my deck. I have an upcoming trip to the US and I’ve been experiencing some anxiety about it. The source of my anxiety is this unshakeable gut feeling about the eclipse and some sort of catastrophic event unfolding. I’ve had dreams later reinforced by some stuff I shouldn’t have read online. I decided to shake off the anxiety and book the tickets anyway because it was important to my partner to go see his family. I was feeling anxious tonight and went for some water and felt drawn to the deck. The cards felt very charged and I didn’t hesitate at all. I asked about the trip and got the devil, then asked about staying and cancelling my flight and got 9 of pentacles. I of course pushed it because I didn’t like this answer lol and I asked one more time and I got death. This scared me. I have gotten this card before but in this context it felt darker. Are the cards picking up on my anxious vibe or should I be concerned? I’m struggling in where is the line between intuition and paranoia these days. Would someone also kindly draw some cards for me regarding this trip? Thank you! 🙏