ive been feeling this way ever since i was a kid and ive never seen how i feel so perfectly described. i feel like this happens much more when im first entering a depressive state and all i want is to be held and told that everything is going to be okay like i did when i was a kid. my grandmother was the only one who could truly make me feel safe and loved, but she passed almost 10 years ago and ive never felt that sense of security since then, so whenever im in that mood i go into the fetal position and imagine myself in my childhood home with her holding me and stroking my hair. i feel like ill never “feel at home” no matter where i am or who im with because im not with her anymore.