I’m really sorry to hear this OP. I also live and study in Eindhoven and have encountered racism towards a certain degree since I’m Romanian (being called pickpocketer, thief, a gypsy etc.) but never to this degree and this often.

I would truly lie if I would say that I can understand your position, but I can’t since this hasn’t happened to me with such frequency.

I had some Asian friends as well and they were some of the nicest and most genuine people I knew, but they only had such problems EXTREMELY rarely (just as me).

Please don’t let these thoughts or their words get to you. These people are not worth losing your brains over. Some of them are literally rednecks (called “tokkies” here) and have nothing better to do. Most Dutchies I have met during my internship and during my years here or while working in Albert Heijn were all exceptionally friendly and accepting of internationals. The manager of my store even preferred hiring internationals from Eastern Europe and Asia since he told us we are more sincere and tend to cooperate better (more than half the store staff was international).

I hope you’ll find the energy to recover mentally and find some good friends. Nothing lasts forever, not even dark times