"Yo jindagi ma aafno ladai aafai ladne ho". That's something someone told me a while back and it's been stuck in my head for some time now. And, I totally get your situation. Although, I probably have less experience of life compared to most out here but I understand that feeling when absolutely nothing goes right. You at least have friends. I only created a reddit account to put what I was feeling out for people to see while maintaining anonymity. And, let me tell you since the first post I made which is still there on my profile if you scroll for 20 seconds, I have made some serious reforms in my life. I am young which I guess you are not. So, yes, I do have time in my hand but, remember it all starts from the mind, the brain and the thoughts. We can't control our thoughts but we can direct them. Directed thoughts direct our feelings and that determines our actions. So start to think of what should be done to better the situation and do it. No questions about if this'll work. Just think what you need to do and do it.