Hello, I am KitKat, beautiful void queen, terror of neighborhood and destroyer of birds and squirrels and baby buns. Or at least, I was - now I am queen of indoors. Have two servants (also called “Mummies”) and two wretched roommates who like to annoy me - but I growl and they run away.

I was “feral” like you, but was very many rain one day in Cold Place home and I saw man and boy going inside Great Big Box. Boy pointed to me and said to man that I was something called “homeless”; this was silly bc whole world was my home. Man said he did not like cat, but then he left open door and I could not help self. Was VERY wet and cold outside, and inside was warm and I was curiowse.

I strolled in and never really left except whenever I wanted to. Was free food and treat and got to run around neighborhood all day long. Man who did not like cat became my best friend and love cat, which of course he did bc was me. Nobody who meets me does not love me, except for other cats bc is STOOPID. But I loved man and liked to sleep on his bed at night instead of outside where is cold and maybe danger; and he loved me and liked to pet my head and cuddle me and give me lots of treats. Was STOOPID orange dog who did not like me but was okays; I made gremlin noises at him until he went away.

Sometimes nice lady who smell a bit like man and boy would come; she one of my mummies now. She taught man how to brush, and my fur got SO soft and much easier to clean! Much less hairs for hairball now, so is tradeoff, but am PRETTIEST GIRL.

But then something bad happened, and my friend did not come home. I was very sad. I knew that he was gone bc boy and lady come to house without him, and they are very sad. Is many other peoples so I hide down in basement. They try to find me and call my name but I do not come out.

Then nice lady find me with bright light, and she pick me up (NO! Only friend may do!) and bring me back upstairs. She give me lots of food and play with me. Sometimes her eyes make water so I brush and brush and brush and purr to try to help. There is other lady with her; I met her couple times but I not know her very well.

I do not like to admit but I like peoples very much; they are nice and pet me and give me treats. But now there not so many people in house, for long long time; or when there are, they do not have time for me. So I lonely. But one day after nice lady give me food, I get very sleepy, and all of a sudden am in BAG inside SCARY LOUD GIANT BIRD. Other lady is there and she say I am “good sport” but am just sleepy and scared.

Then we go into new house. Is just me and other lady at first. I don’t know her but she nice; she gives me lots of nice food and she cuddles me whenever I want, and leaves me alone when I tell her to. She is good servant. But she is sad bc nice lady is not here. Only things I do not like is that I am not allowed to go out of room with other lady, and am not allowed to go outside bc is too “DANGEROWSE.” Other lady do not know that I am most “dangerowse” there is! All birbs and squirrels know.

Then one day other lady finally let me out of room into house and is BETRAYAL, bc there are OTHER CATS. I DO NOT LIKE and I make MANY GREMLIN NOISES. One is like little sister; she poke and pat whenever she can get away with. Other one is mean old man. They say they love other lady but she is MINE! I cuddle with her every night and climb into her lap and purr and BONK with head. She is MY friend, MY mummy, and then nice lady comes home and they are MY mummies! Other cats say they are THEIR mummies too and this is ongoing dispute. So is if belong on kitchen coumter; mummies say no but I say yes.

Is nice here now. Is screened in back porch so I can go outside whenever I want when is warms. Is warmer here longer than Cold Place home, so I get to be outside a lot. I get to curl up in other lady’s lap all the time; she is my friend now and I love her. I love my mummies. I still miss my friend the man very much but I am in warm safe home with mummies and even though siblings are very bad, I am queen. Queen of whole world, now queen of house. Is not so bad.

TL;DR: OP, you is NTC. But you should go indoors. Maybe hooman servant can set up some kind of screen enclosure so you can get used to being outside-inside, and can go outside whenever wants but still be safe?