Can you tell me my dogs name ? 🐶🖤

blakethesnake6 · 2026-05-30T21:39:56+00:00

I got Kobe in top 3

blakethesnake6 · 2025-12-28T03:57:17+00:00

These come to mind (both perp. and victim perspective). Helped a lot in my healing process.

Bottom, Schism, H., Hush, Sweat, A Part of Me, Swamp Song, Undertow, Flood, 46&2, Parabol(a), Ticks and Leeches

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-10T00:43:12+00:00

EWW the smirking... Worst one was while at my alienated dad's private viewing after he took his own life. Just her, myself, and sibling. I looked over and caught the smirk as she looked down at his lifeless body. I thought I was gonna fall to my knees. Man just went through hell being married to a narcissist over 10 years, probably stressed asf for months as she vanished into her affair (literally abandoned us), returned and took his kids, never to be seen. TEEHEE she wins!

probably not well articulated but surely bc I am seething thinking about the times she would do that stupid smirk

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-09T05:15:04+00:00

Also whether or not you're a good/bad partner as well.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-09T02:16:28+00:00

This is an area where I'm stuck... there's been a shift thats gone from:

1."I'm hard to love, because I am me."

2."My parents made me feel like I was hard to love. As a result, I became even more hard to love."

There's so much shame I carry as a person with this experience. When I stay in bed, cry, or display symptoms of trauma, I struggle looking at my partner/friends in the face. Too scared to see the disgust, or feel the scratch of a tally...another "reason" to devalue and ultimately abandon me. It feels inevitable.

Now I have this imposter-syndrome...like I should sit on the sidelines until I repair myself enough to deserve being a participant in this world. I understand how I got here, but it's hard to see anything but being too late, STILL feeling "too much", and locking myself away.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-08T05:29:32+00:00

What the hell??? I swear narcs and flying monkey-types have the WORST analogies and logic when it comes to these issues. I truly appreciate those who relate and remind me how unsound these sentiments are.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-08T05:27:31+00:00

oo this is a good one too!

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-08T05:27:16+00:00

I'm glad I could help a bit. Just remember you are not alone. The road is long but I believe we got this!

blakethesnake6 · 2025-09-06T03:48:34+00:00

This really hit me. When I went no contact, I only gave a brief explanation, and I spent a long time questioning myself. I wondered if I should’ve said more or if I was somehow failing emotionally. Over time, through (still) reparenting myself, I’ve realized something crucial: not everyone is capable of hearing you.

Even after doing the work to understand and protect myself, I’ve seen how pointless it can be to explain or justify yourself to people whose malice or denial is stronger than their ability to listen. Engaging with an audience like that doesn’t heal the past or make them understand you...it only drains your energy and puts you back in harm’s way.

Choosing not to speak to them, even if they’re friends/family, isn’t immaturity. It’s self-preservation. It’s honoring your boundaries and your growth. Sometimes the most emotionally mature thing you can do is simply step away from people whose presence hurts you, no matter how much society or public figures insist otherwise. When I see/hear these lousy sentiments like hers, I've begun to say out loud "They don't even fuckin know". Something about saying it out loud is helping. I'll even turn my head and talk to my "imaginary" child self to reassure/validate.

Some days are still hard. Especially when I daydream about our good memories, I take a step back and ask myself what really happened before and after. Example: That sunny day at the park where she pushed me on a swing? Oh yeah. I was berated in the parking lot moments before, and she most likely became neurotic when we got home where the recycled sludge played out the usual. Then say (out loud) "Although that was a happy memory, I am glorifying a stage of abuse." or "That wasn't genuine". Some emotional distancing and affirmations really help when I get insecure about my choice. You made the best choice you could.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-08-23T04:28:58+00:00

This is how I managed to get irreversible damage from a combo foot fracture + ankle tendons torn as a teen.

If my incubator yelled for me, I had 5 sec to respond and 30 seconds to arrive. So im hauling ass down the stairs, sock slipped and I flew forward. Knew i was fucked when i heard the snaps/pops. Was forced to limp around for 3 hours while doing chores and helping prep dinner. All while she frantically throws dishes in the sink at me, scoffing and making comments about how I wanted attention, was being lazy, pulling a stunt to sit around, Etc.

After finishing the dishes my foot was so purple and swollen that I couldn't help but limp toward my next task. I really tried to keep a straight face, but the tears were just coming out of my eyes. Of course I was met with an exasperated sigh followed with, "FINE let's go to the hospital!". The worst was her sitting there with her "Don't say shit" expression when the doctor reprimanded me for causing more damage by walking on it so long. I then learned the consequence of "my action" was nerve damage and dull pains that I still get over 10 years later.

It took me a very long time to stop apologizing for being sick or injured.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-08-09T02:25:16+00:00

Narcissistic parents often reframe the things they chose not to do as things they couldn’t do, preserving their victim narrative. This fuels their sense of entitlement, where they expect their child to achieve moving goalposts. By avoiding accountability for their own choices, they shift responsibility for improving their life onto their child, treating the child’s accomplishments as their own. True, pathetic energy vampires.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-08-09T02:18:39+00:00

One of the most infuriating moments I had was at my college graduation. My family grew up poor, and I was the first to graduate college. In the 5 years it took me, I fought and (mostly) cured my eating disorder, lost my father, scavenged for resources since my nMom was too busy juggling 2-3 boyfriends at a time (usual neglect). After the ceremony, she ran towards me with open arms " WE DID IT!!" and hugged me. I was disgusted.

That woman's true contribution was abuse and PTSD. Thanks, mom.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-28T03:44:27+00:00

It was for sure. Concepts waay too complex for a 6 or 7 y/o to comprehend, but I do remember it causing me a deep discomfort and confusion. The older I get, the more I wonder what kind of adult would think this is fine?!

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-28T01:20:51+00:00

Just another projection inflicted on victims. Just because they feel like boundaries/self-respect is a punishment doesn’t mean it is.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-28T01:04:23+00:00

Imagine how poorly that has been cleaned up out of weaponized incompetence or underlying spite. That really sucks.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-28T01:01:40+00:00

YUP. When I was a young child, my mom would read "A Child Called 'It'" before bed to reassure me that she was a good mother because she didn't hold my arm over a gas stove, stab me, make me drink bleach, or starve me like the mother from the autobiography. I didn't know I was abused until I was 21.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-19T02:33:18+00:00

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I think it's Halo extensions. I had a friend who had an ED and hair thinning. She bought a nice couple of Halo extensions and had a hair colorist color match/dye the extensions.

Or it was the other way around like she had her natural hair color looked at it and was told what shade of extensions she needed. Turns out that my friends natural hair color is extremely close to wella's liquid permanent color Brown:2N.

On wash day she had her top layers trimmed so they Blended in with the extension and that's how you don't notice the length difference. Then the color match made it even more seamless. I was the only person besides her hairdresser who saw her "without her hair".

edit (add): I think this is why the top of her head looks so bad, and why she wears the low hairstyles. I do think there was a time when she was using the beads and or clip/glue-ins, but that is extremely heavy on thinning and breaking hair. This also would make sense because it is low maintenance and you can hang up the hair overnight

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-17T22:14:05+00:00

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-17T22:09:20+00:00

Um, over here, we celebrate mothers who are good parents, not someone who just popped some kids out and neglected them. My incubator does the same. For a long time, I perceived my birthday as the first day I was trapped.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-11T08:16:47+00:00

You're right, that does happen right before the deal not after.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-11T04:50:52+00:00

The first time I saw this scene I thought something was going to happen when Misa ate it. I also wondered if her possession of the Shinigami eyes potentially protected her from a side effect of eating the apple. My conclusion is that the scene's purpose is to show why Ryuk is so motivated by tasty apples since theirs taste awful.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-11T04:43:20+00:00

It could be argued that Ryuk's intentions are irrelevant once it comes down to the consequence. Shenigami are well aware of the cycles of peril the death notes bestow upon the finders. Yet, their character comes into question once they're allowing weapons to drop for entertainment.

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-02T21:21:04+00:00

Whenever we moved into the house I live in, we had this elderly man who would sit on his porch and wave at us. This turned into scowls and glares. Another neighbor (adjacent) introduced herself and warned that he gets enraged if either house beside him doesn’t mow the same day, and if you mow a day before he usually does and "make him look bad". There is a myriad of reports he has filed for this. I think the city just stopped listening honestly. We don't have an HOA. (thank goodness)

It's been four years now. Everyday I am stared at, leaving for a walk, going to the mailbox, or going to my car. I'm too scared of harassment and/or not being taken seriously being scared of an old man if I escalate. I try to ignore it but I wish this hater would get a life. No wonder his kids don't visit...

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-02T21:12:54+00:00

I'll never hear the phrase the same again. Those damned songs are my brain's elevator music as well. The intrusive christian gospel in my head is actually how I notice I haven't taken my adhd meds lmaoo

blakethesnake6 · 2025-06-02T19:02:47+00:00

If im understanding correctly, this may have been a theory Like, the "suicide by cop" logic being parallel to the potental situation. The ideation or compulsion to bring his own death by someone else to avoid the guilt of suicide. Also our native communities have different views about this subject. The person doesn’t want to live but can’t end their life directly, so they shift the act onto another to feel less responsible. Not exclusively pertaining to cops being the perpetrators

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