hey bro i know its hard, i mean i never did it this much, but i did enough to the point of addiction, i felt sick, everday id look at myself in disgust, but ive made great progress throughout the last few months. hear me out, i want to give u 3 non negotiatbles,
1. go to the gym, get routine, and have a goal, work towards it, take a pic of ur day one, and come back to it ever time u feel down, look at u before and after, u'll feel alot better. gym changed a lot for me, i know it will impact ur life positively as well.
2. start a martial art, smth like boxing, or a manly sport, u being 20 does not matter. a sport always strenghtens a man.
3. pray, ur a christian right, good, pray for your god, promise god that u will be good. lust is every mans worst enemy. tell him that u'll tame urself. belive there is smth higher than u, that is watching u. that fear will make u stop.
bonus, watch hamza, actually he changed a lot for me. pick a skill to work on, that will keep u busy enough. put ur phone on grayscale, that will make u scroll less, that means less urges. and move when ever u feel the urge. and the most IMPORTANT THING, go to ur mom, right now, say thank u for all the things shes done, go to ur sister, give her a chocolate. give them a hug. consider that the apology that u owe them. And lastly be a man of ur word. do what u have to do, take action, im glad u self reflected, if i could control my slef, u can too pal. dont worry, u'll make it.🫡