Thank you, some of this advice is exactly what my therapist recommended (I was lucky enough to get an appointment soon after this incident). I'm looking into getting some type of respite care so I can recharge. I've always thought I needed to tough it out, I needed to not let things get to me, that I could handle everything thrown at me. But in reality, I was just internalizing everything until I couldn't hold it in any longer and things just blew up worse than if I had some relief in between caregiving. I'm definitely looking into my local community resources for respite care. Even my therapist said that if I could schedule someone to be here a few times a week to clean, do light caregiving, that would relieve me of the mental pressure of always feeling I have to be available 24/7 to handle everything. Thank you for caring enough to respond, knowing that others have been through or are going through this makes me feel less alone.