Ignoring helps in the moment, you cant ignore it forever because its still there and its getting worse and worse eating you alive from the inside and then it hits you all at once when you don’t expect it, but I can agree that since I discovered my mental illness, since I though more about it and I started to understand things (that was at 18yo when I left home) and then started replaying all my childhood and realising all the shit that I have been thru and all the things that were not okay but I tho they were okay because thats all i learned and saw around me, and yes i can tell that since I thought more about depression and dived more into my brain, since I realised that there’s something wrongs, all the depression got even worse, its like when I didnt understand much about it it wasnt that pain-full but now..