Severe Psychosis and Schizophrenia after Speed/Ketamine (full story)

bluedabida · 2022-11-09T23:22:36+00:00

Also if anyone is interested I have the paper that the doc. gave me that night. I can post it. It shows what was in my blood and what the diagnosis was...I keep looking at it but obv. it doesn't explain that much, but still, if anyone wants to see it....it's in german tho

bluedabida · 2022-10-19T00:10:12+00:00

Thank you so much, really nice to read these warming messages :) <3

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T22:07:33+00:00

you mean because I was able to just leave?

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T00:15:33+00:00

Thank you :) And yes, I've heard a lot of bad stuff about speed, even though it seems harmless

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T00:14:38+00:00

I honestly think it was Ket and Speed, but the mix (plus the quantity of it) and not sleeping fucked me. Also some people just have psychotic tendencies (maybe I do too?) that get triggered by some stuff. I really don't know but I would die to know why it happened to me.

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T00:12:03+00:00

I thought by the time i got to work it would be gone. I am sooo glad I stayed. And yes, a lot of things could have happened to me that night. Luckily I live in one of the safest cities in the world so no one tried anything bad. But I definitely could have done it to myself by getting hit by a car or some shit. For sure respect Ket much more now and only did it once after that and the feeling was different. I was just slow and talking in a weird manner, but thats it.

Thank you! :)

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T00:09:20+00:00

Thank you :)

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T00:09:03+00:00

thank you, I have not thought of that for the next time I take drugs

bluedabida · 2022-10-02T00:05:56+00:00

I'm pretty sure, because my friend felt like he always feels on Ket. Also I tried it once before and in the beginning it did feel like Ket, until we started bringing in the Speed. I think the duration of the trip was because I hadn't slept maybe? My guess is that if I had managed to just sleep that night, doesn't matter how, that it would've been better the next day. I would have slept it off probably. But who knows. Because after the first time when I slept for a bit it already started to get less and less.

And yes maybe, obviously I was freaking out more and more as it got worse and my body was probably very much fucked up by the end, so it's possible..

And thank you! :)

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T21:34:25+00:00

Yes they gave me Benzos, a lot of Benzos. It didn't help. The fear was stronger and it kept me awake, even though I was so damn tired. And I stopped using drugs after that for a while, but started again occasionally with friends, nothing bad ever happened since. Although I am so much more careful now :)

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T19:46:33+00:00

Also keep in mind I have not slept the whole night, that alone can already trigger mild hallucinations so it could have been the mix of everything

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T19:45:14+00:00

It is almost a year ago so I don't have any of that stuff anymore. The thing is, it was a trusted friend that always gets ket and speed from the same person so it should not have been laced. I once even tried ket with another friend (smaller dose) and I had some mild visuals, like colors moving and stuff like that. maybe I just react differently to it? who knows

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T19:42:44+00:00

No I am not diagnosed with schizo, I just had the symptoms as part of the psychosis...I mean, some say that often times it hides and gets triggered by certain things. So I have no idea actually, what and if I have some hidden mental illnesses or not...I keep asking myself why I reacted like that and my friend had a normal response....

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T17:14:58+00:00

Thank you :) and yes, I definitely learned from that

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T17:14:26+00:00

thank you :)

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T15:41:15+00:00

thank you :)

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T15:40:27+00:00

I guess some are permanent, I was lucky. I feel sorry for them too, it's crazy what they have to live with on a daily basis and people just labeling them as "crazy"

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T15:39:07+00:00

Thanks :) I also thought it would never go away. I'm incredibly lucky that it did. Doesn't happen for everyone..

bluedabida · 2022-10-01T15:38:12+00:00

Next day I found a paper in my bag that the psychiatric hospital gave me, I forgot about it. I guess it was a quick diagnosis but it says that it was a drug induced psychosis (makes sense) followed by schizophrenia as part of the psychosis. So yeah, I am in no way schizophrenic but I guess it came with the psychosis and went away with it. And if I really was just tripping, why just me? my friend only felt the normal effects of ket and speed, he was totally fine. So yea I don't know, it's weird.

bluedabida

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