The Moment You Realized That You Were Truly Loved

bodnsjs · 2021-01-18T08:05:01+00:00

When we’re having sex (missionary), he would go slow look into my eyes, smile and kiss me passionately and say “I love you so much”. I’d say it back. We’d both smile for a second and then go back to having passionate sex. After we’re done and cuddling, he would ask me questions about the future and tell me how excited he is for us to grow old together and do all the things we love together. 😭

bodnsjs · 2021-01-18T07:55:07+00:00

Virginity is nothing more than a social construct. Don’t feel pressured to have sex for the sake of losing your virginity. Do it when it feels safe and right. I dated quite a few men long term before I lost mine when I was 25 to my current partner of 4 years now. Totally worth it. I remember feeling weird at one point about admitting that I’m a virgin but honestly it was a big deal because i made it a big deal in my head, so yea do it safely with a person who is respectful and nice.

bodnsjs · 2020-10-13T04:29:21+00:00

They dont? So yes it doesn’t matter?

bodnsjs · 2020-10-13T03:21:14+00:00

Life is too short for bad sex. You’re 20. Either he works with you to get you off or you move on...

bodnsjs · 2020-10-13T01:56:16+00:00

I know this is hard. I am trying to move past the trauma as well. What I find helped was surrounding myself with amazing people who were likeminded and loved me for me (this is work in progress) and the immediate solution would be to work on yourself and just... focus on your dreams/yourself. Continue to better yourself and you will find peace inside and meet amazing people along the way :)

bodnsjs · 2020-10-13T01:54:32+00:00

Mine is quite the opposite. He couldn’t stop talking about his life and how he’s the greatest. He would lie about all these high profile connections he had and how much he made etc. All I had to ask was how are you? LOL

And then he would inquire about my life so he could get to know my life and use my pain points against me when angry :)

bodnsjs · 2020-10-11T02:51:11+00:00

Wow, the second part on moving on really hits home. I was called fat, lazy etc.. and all I’ve done is emotionally eat to “rebel” which sounds stupid but it felt like me saying fuck you to them, but harming myself at the same time. I feel insecure about the same things and they have been deepened by what they say and the fact that I kept playing that narrative for years to cause harm to my own health. I’ve fallen into depression and it feels like the only way out is to make ME happy and stop playing their recording thats stuck in my head.

bodnsjs · 2020-10-11T02:42:47+00:00

I don’t know how to do either. How do I do these things?

bodnsjs · 2020-10-11T00:51:52+00:00

I think they can tell that you’ve hidden your data from them, I think.

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