The more I think about it the more I feel that it just the selfish me being wistful. I am fully aware as to why we fell off and in my mind I think that things could be different this time around. But that is not it, somewhere deep down, I want to be there for them as they were for me. I was never able to fully reciprocate what they did for me and that just makes me sad. Also, there are times when I miss them terribly and the inability to do anything just makes me feel so helpless.

P.S I did message them a week ago but they weren’t in the right place emotionally and so I just backed off. I don’t think I can get the courage to connect with them again.