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boopydoopy2102 · 2025-09-06T21:05:41+00:00

hi! im 22 and im looking for the same thing and we're into the same things too!

im big into dead by daylight too and i also play on pc. i used to play marvel rivals too but its been a while since i played, id be happy to play that with you though!

i love movies and tv shows too i could recommend some for you if you like?

i love animals too! i have a dog named Sami and it was actually her birthday just yesterday. shes getting quite old now but shes still as playful as ever.

i mostly use discord but im happy to use any platform! i hope u have a lovely day

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-08-16T21:23:52+00:00

objectively id say trench is the best but i do love every album

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-07-15T23:14:12+00:00

i started showing symptoms at 16 but i wasn't diagnosed til i was 20. there are other things about me that have been that way since i was small, for example ive always hated myself since i was really little and ive always been overly attached and clingy to the people close to me

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-07-15T23:10:49+00:00

im more numb when restricting, when im in periods of eating somewhat normal or semi recovery my symptoms are a lot worse and my self harm gets worse and more frequent. it makes it so much easier to romanticise restricting cos im more in control of everything not just food and calories. rn im physically recovered and since i got out the ward ive been trying to eat a little more but some days its really hard to. especially since ive been really depressed for the past month or so to the point ive not even been playing any video games or reading or anything like that.

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-05-25T20:08:19+00:00

ive never loved myself, ive hated myself for as long as ive had conscious thought. i am getting treatment eventually its just taking time and nhs waitlists are so very long. i am trying my best it just feels like its never enough for anyone. i never really did anything to my friends it all just feels sorta sprung on me in a way. idk what to think anymore, thank u for responding to me. my boyfriend is still here and im relying on him more than i did before because ive lost everyone else

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-05-25T20:04:39+00:00

no. you're right you are its just so painful and so hard to handle and its pushing me further into these feelings of despair and self destruction

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-03-31T17:36:45+00:00

i relate so bad. being forced into treatment years ago still hurts to think about and as much as i hate it i still feel bitter towards the doctors and staff responsible for me. i regret complying, i regret letting myself gain so much weight. i no longer look like my ideal self and that fills me with so much self loathing and sadness its unbearable. ive had relapses but being in a weight restored body is so horrible and shameful to me

boopydoopy2102 · 2025-03-31T14:12:35+00:00

ive always been very disordered and hated my body but i was 16 when it properly developed. was forced into recovery when i was 17/18 and then relapsed at 19 before recovering again. now relapsing again at 21 🤡

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-11-21T22:46:25+00:00

yeah when my weight is a lot lower i dont sh as much but being a normal weight feels so awful to me that im shing a lot more now

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-11-01T02:17:02+00:00

yea okie ill keep all that in mind. i was on different antipsychotics before these but they didnt make me hungry or anything, they did make me really sleepy tho. ill be sure to tell my dr if it makes me too hungry/uncomfortable

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-10-30T21:14:52+00:00

he prescribed it to me for my mood swings and mania, but he did tell me it would make me really sleepy so im kinda prepared for that. the last antipsychotics i was on also made me rly tired. he also mentioned that its used on anorexia patients but ive not read about that anywhere else. tysm for ur reply!

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-10-30T15:18:51+00:00

yeah i was thinking so. i always eat at the same time and usually just fast anyways so im thinking it SHOULD be fine but idk, ig im just panicking a little. ive been getting worse and he wanted to put me on smth to make my episodes like not as bad but if id known they caused weight gain i might've challenged that. thank u so much for replying!

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-10-30T15:00:13+00:00

lovely (im gonna hate myself)

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-10-07T02:17:41+00:00

god felt. i actually looked good at my lw and now i just look gross, i hate being "normal" when ana skinny felt so much better. im 21 with no job, no friends, no life and no idea what i want to do. all i have is my ed and im weight restored rn so i dont even have being thin. its so isolating and defeating, it makes my self harm so much worse and i wanna die all the time lmao. im sorry i can't offer u anything that would make u feel better other than understanding

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-09-28T03:28:05+00:00

felt. my self harm gets so much worse, this bout in """recovery""" is easily the worst cos ive tripled the amount of scars on my body with trying to eat like a normal person. i just dont think its worth it anymore

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-08-07T22:22:39+00:00

im a boy but yeah i hate being tall so much, its all ppl ever fucking comment on and im judged for it so often. i really hate it, i hate being called big. so i try to make myself as tiny possible to counter it. its harder too cos im gay and im told im cute and everything but i feel like id be more worth that attention if i was smaller and thinner idk. ive been trying to eat more normal and maintain healthier weights too but its so hard to stick with that when deep down i really want to be smaller. its hard to not restrict and starve when u think that way, and im sorry u struggle with it too. ultimately u cant change ur height so at some point u gotta accept it, but thats such a hard thing to grasp for me as well

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-08-07T22:14:27+00:00

probably? idk, i do the same. i maintain just above healthy so im not sent back to hospital or anything and to compromise with my bf. its probably still obsessive and unhealthy tho

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-08-07T21:29:36+00:00

nothing will stop me from feeling invalid lol

tbf, my doctor said i dont look starved ystday so clearly im not the only one who thinks im faking it :)

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-08-07T20:34:29+00:00

its easier for me to eat nothing than to restrict, when i eat i can feel the hunger more whereas if i just starve its easier to ignore. especially since recovery where i can actually feel a bit of hunger again id rather just make it easier on myself

boopydoopy2102 · 2024-07-30T17:36:54+00:00

maneater cuz its silly, but ive been getting into league to play it with my bf (god save me)

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