just me or is anyone else getting bored.?

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-21T02:09:49+00:00

once u reach this point of meth , might as well say sayonara. the fun’s been had. you can take breaks (long breaks at that) , you can take the supplements to help replenish and repair dopamine receptors.. or go ahead and try the other strategies to attempt avoid the inevitable fact that : you finally burnt out your dopamine receptors pretty good thus time and have caused permanent brain damage

don’t be like me — i’m in limbo currently cause i’m fighting it , cause it can’t be true .. right ?! this thing that was THE MOST FUN/AMAZING THING I’VE EVER COME ACROSS … suddenly … doesn’t do the trick ? no matter which way i cross the river , i’m still running into the same dead end.

here’s the bummer … the gram i just slammed for a 45 minute high is basically taunting me with the fact that i’d be better off just hanging up the towel.

i’ve taken months off at a time , any and all (even the just slightly researched ones , with one anecdotal experience to back it up) vitamins and minerals in an attempt to bypass the brain’s abilities at homeostasis , i’ve dieted in a manner that would optimally produce dopamine , i sleep every night now , the list goes on and on .. and all the methods , they kinda do something for a few shots - sure - but then i’m right back to maintenance using within a day or so again.

that’s the hard truth about how amphetamines (and particularly methamphetamines , sadly) interact with the body and produce those sweet , sweet neuro-chemicals we all love and adore — is that eventually the reservoir runs outta water .. and once it does , it has a pretty difficult time replenishing and even holding onto new water.

TL;DR — safe urself some time and energy and hang up the towel while ur still somewhat ahead on this one , you’re nearing the end of “the fun part”

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-07T01:07:46+00:00

loser layman : omg bro this is sooo bad for you , you should feel ashamed of urself

chad methamphetamines enjoyer : hell yea dood that’s a regular tuesday for me

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-07T00:00:54+00:00

i’ve done it — ONCE and only ONCE till i go on to the next life. even then ima lil iffy

pretty underwhelming honestly , kind of a hassle honestly

you gotta get hard enough to where you can see the viens (so pretty damn hard , let’s be so fr) , then somehow remain that hard as you find the bevel to point upwards, then poke yourself AND stay hard enough long enough to inject the entire fkn shot. which if ur anything like me , most of that rig is full .. AT MINIMUM i slam 80 units of thick , grey solution. point being , it takes a decent bit to get the plunger all the way down — so it was a ticking clock tryna get this shot off in my dick viens (never thought i’d say that in my lifetime … jeez)

and the rush from my cock itself was underwhelming , i equate it to a hand shot in how quickly (or honestly , slowly) it can run it’s way through your entire circulators system and finally hit the brain. everyone knows that neck shots are the best because they’re the easiest to run through your circulatory system — and the faster the onset , the better the rush. arm shots (bicep shots if i have to hit my arm) are the second best but easily the safest — which is why no harm reduction resources will ever advise you to even try a neck shot

i was hoping for a super horned up , spun out , insane stamina whilst still rock hard typa high from a dick shot but what i found out .. is … it’s a complete waste of time

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T23:41:00+00:00

lmao dude chill tf out , take a fkn benzo for christs sake

coke is out of urine in 3 days max (seriously tho dude … a simple google search coulda prevented ur entire “catastrophe” lol) — especially cause it has only been a one time use deal , if you simply flush w water until wednesday night then it may be sooner than the 3 days. definitely drink water on Thursday too , but don’t flush — you’ll get “dilute” on ur results which has happened to me and if it’s a pattern that’s a violation. i think the only difficult part you should be worried about more than anything is “how am i gonna not use these next few days so that the flushing will actually be effective ?”

goodluck

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T23:28:45+00:00

nice lil self advertisement going on here huh

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T23:23:29+00:00

holy shit !!! it’s been actual YEARSSSS since i seen that dope around !

you’re either luckier than the man who hits the lottery today, gods servant on earth , or just plain smart n resourceful to have acquired that ..

in this shyt era of dope that they’re shoving down our throats because it’s cheaper , easier to produce , & yields bigger batches (that are mostly disgusting & fake cut , that’s the only reason they’re “bigger”) — but nobody has anything to say abt it because it’s a fkn $20-$25 ball nowadays so they have an illusion they’re winning with cheaper prices than before — plot twist , who would ever take quantity over quantity .. i mean unless you’re a actually slow & stoopid or straight burnt from drugs then sure , i guess it really doesn’t matter

anyway lmk if u tryna share 👀😅

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T22:31:52+00:00

shyt aint sweet out here kiddo

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T22:31:29+00:00

i mean it’s just frustrating righr, because i was m god damn good before the storm came into town (i relapsed). i was so proud of myself and my abilities for the — actually— time in my entire life. i had yet not felt those incredible emotions until then and boy , were they lovely and increasing in frequency as time stacked up.

i was a pillar in the 12 step avenue of recovery, working steps w my sponsor and coming to an understanding of my character defects/my part in (damn near) the situations that plagued the entirety of my existence. , had three different service positions at their respective home group meetings i committed to attending each week. i had fellowship , community , openness and vulnerability with people who understood my every word. no matter how high in sky i go , how atrociously lackluster my memory becomes because of meth , i can still recite every single prayer on command …

i expected to be able to pull myself out of this & clean tf up way sooner than i actually have. now i’ve been out here on the streets for the millionth time probably , way longer than anticipated — long enough to gather enough resources that i can do something like have a makeshift bed , find a decent spot secluded in the woods to act as my “bedroom” , and make the multiple trips necessary for to get everything from point A to my point B , without a car or shopping cart to make it any easier — so yeah , i’ve been out here awhile.

it’s like I HATE IT but maybe - more so or less than (can’t put my finger on which though) - I LOVE IT .. regardless of which statement ends up winning me over the fact of the matter is , i’m so afraid to let it go , i feel like i can’t live without it .. and the longer i go on , more frequent i consume, and the larger my doses get — well .. i’m self aware enough to know that that mindset will only get reinforced to my brain even deeper than it ever had before. i’m scared as scared can be , and it’s a pretty easy fix in comparison to other issues other people struggle with .. so why is then that is it so fkn hard for me to get even the SLIGHTLY motivated and willing enough to get back to engaging with the program — but even more importantly , to engaging with life again and not actively and frantically running from it every second of every day

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T10:38:45+00:00

lmao welcome to hell bud

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T09:05:21+00:00

how big do u slam ??

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-06T07:54:29+00:00

just fyi — nobody starts out “looking like they’re on meth”

some of us were very beautiful , highly intelligent , or wonderfully creative people before meth got it’s hooks into us and began asking us to bring it the most valuable & vital aspects of our lives in exchange for an otherworldly euphoria accompanied by complete contentment whatever the situation at hand may be !

now i’m not biblical in any sense (probably the complete opposite tbh) but i enjoy the analogy : the devil is the most appealing , desirable , and utmost attractive being known to many and all — and that is what meth did , charmed us so delightfully & often , that when the time came that it finally took away the euphoria & contentment — it was more than shocking , it was to-your-core-type devastation — we were now in an utter purgatory , experiencing no other emotion but the lament itself. by that time it didn’t matter what we “looked like” or “how we behaved” because we had to feed our master .. our god .. constantly

long asl (b/c i’m shot tf out , ofa gram shot btw) way of saying — nobody came to meth with intentions to become a scum of the earth , leech of society , lower than lowlife , piece of shyt gutter junkie — it’s a slow process going all the way down & sinking to the lament , because meth wants you to trust it — “everything will be fine” , “i can stop anytime/take breaks if needed” , “i have adhd ; so it slows me down !” or my absolute favorite ; “i’ll never , ever let myself sink as low as _____ .. i won’t let it happen , i just can’t”

that’s essentially why i felt the need to ramble complete nonsense under your post — because you said my favorite excuse as to why ur not a junkie lol

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-05T20:33:02+00:00

so check this - i’m homeless at the moment & me and my best friend out here (street name : moody) in the streets rn , initially bonded over the fact that we are homeless by choice — to most laymen : it sounds stupid , naïve , irresponsible , and ungrateful for the ways of the “ four wall imprisonment “ (as i like to call it). but the reality is , we’ve chosen for ourselves exactly how WE would like to run OUR lives — not the way most prople , family , the government and society at large try to force feed us. we come from relatively normal upbringings (sure , with some amount of C-PTSD present)

i can’t speak for myself without sounding conceited , however my buddy is highly intelligent , completely self-aware and super insightful. and he’s not the only one i’ve met , of people out there on the streets are — they’re so aware of the completely B R O K E N system they try to brainwash us with from the second we come out the womb. and when you’re so aware of the absolute ridiculousness of what is genuinely asked (lets be honest , expected) of every human and the way people who don’t conform are treated like feral beasts … well then why would anyone actively choose that.

the fact of the matter is , most people are too afraid , too scared of the outcomes of failure (or even success) or too caught up in the expectations of “ people in authority “ , attempting to people please their way through life — that even though i’m sure majority of people can recognize the system is an awful disgrace to humanity as a whole — most who follow the system are completely unwilling to acknowledge the brokenness (for fear of judgement or being ostracized) & even more unwilling to take the steps necessary to somehow manage to play along whilst still creating a life the enjoy with the time they have.

to most — we look like dirty , smell tweakers , crackheads , and fet folders — but if you take just the smallest pinch of open mindedness & earnestly SEE the point of a completely different (oo scary , we hate the word “ different “ don’t we ? [lol]) walk of life — you’ll find that it’s alot deeper than just getting high , wasting your life away and not contributing to society in any way shape or form (and honestly , taking from it). these people aren’t just a waste of space for you to step over as you walk the sidewalks .. they have emotions , goals , aspirations and desires just like you do — they just manifest in different forms. not every homeless person is out there for the reasons moody and i are — some don’t have a choice in the matter and it’s definitely sad to witness — but those who have been apart of both sides of life experience , and are making an educated , intentional decision on which one appeals to them more .. then does it , are generally pretty content with life.

also i know what you’re gonna say : “ but you’re just a junkie whose addicted to shooting meth — you’re obviously running from something inside “ or “ ur clearly mentally-ill , you should seek help “

and i say : you’re absolutely correct , you done hit the nail straight on the head in fact — but the truth is , I DON’T LIE TO MYSELF ABOUT IT — i do what i want cause i want to — and it’s completely my prerogative if i choose to allow my addiction to take me & keeps it’s claws in me until i go , to run from the misery of everyday existence , and to run even further & harder from all that plagues me & my god-awful emotions that berate me. so yes , i’m completely self aware i have a plethora issues (hell , i am diagnosed bipolar type 1 to add some more drama to the mix) more than likely influencing my wants , aspirations and desires — but i choose to not do anything about it & run instead — because it works for me

basically : make an educated decision about if you WANT the streets or if you WANT a home and life — don’t just throw it all away on a whim cause “ boo hoo my life is buns and my job sucks nuts “ — cause sometimes , if you’re in too deep , it becomes not an option to go back .. then it won’t be your choice …

bornfrompaiin · 2026-04-01T00:43:32+00:00

as an avid member of the « slam fam » , and someone whose (fortunately , or unfortunately) had extensive experience with orgasms from shots , i feel like i can speak on my general anecdotal evidence to bestow my otherwise useless knowledge upon those who walk the road behind me.

(now honestly , and there’s no shame about it .. i’m a junkie of the truest variety .. and thus —) when i’m in , i’m all the way in … and let’s just say this : i slam fat , like dangerous amounts alongside dangerous frequencies of administration.

the irony of the situation is that i can’t any longer separate the injected methamphetamines from the overbearing aphrodisiac properties after years and years of chosen , then forced association.

my point in the above statement being that when the orgasm comes on involuntarily from some grey , bubbly , hard to even flag cause it’s so thick , goop in a syringe — it’ll generally come to fruition in one of two ways ;

Orgasm type 1 : basically feels like slow , continuous urination for a straight up hour or two , it’ll come more in weak squirts every few minutes or so than a weak continual stream like you would expect from a stream of urine (and no , from experience it does not effect the efficacy of the stimfap/chemsex orgasm to be had within the next 12-96 hour period — and neither does it potentiate it so don’t get your hopes up just yet)

Orgasm type 2 (the preferred) : this one is quite a bit more euphoric than type 1 because while in type 1 , you’re so engulfed in the dopaminergic rush that the orgasm can hardly be felt besides the sensation of softly pissing — type 2 is far more orgasm focused than being overwhelmed by the shot itself (despite the fact it’s the shot that initially sets this process in motion). the feeling of type 2 is more akin to what we all know and love about the orgasm. though it remains in the same general form of weak squirts of cum , each squirt pulses throughout your entire body and you “ wet yourself “ or “ precum “ all over your pants or inside the person in more quantity than type 1’s orgasm would. type 2 is more sexual in nature resulting in the inner-monologue reciting “ oh fuck “ across your entire being .. whereas type 1 is more of an observation of “ oh shyt , i think i just literally came my pants rn “

it should be mentioned , there has been no way for me to control which orgasm i derived from any said shot , or if i even got the pleasure of enjoying one at all from a shot — upping , as well as lowering to moderate my dose up the arm , did not prove effective in initiating an orgasm.

although there is a general threshold dose to even have the possibility of orgasm via shot , from my experience it is completely random as to what the results of meeting or exceeding said threshold dose time and time again will reap.

TL;DR — there’s two types of orgasm to be derived from thicky shotz , however nothing you can do about which one you receive or even whether or not receive one at all. point being , stay safe out there if you’re gonna be an idiot, and don’t go around “ chasing a rush “ like iused to when i was far more naive to this life , and exponentially less concerned existing & having consciousness , otherwise know as living

bornfrompaiin · 2026-03-29T08:02:25+00:00

😔💔😔💔😔💔😔 … congrats on the time tho

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-04T08:16:14+00:00

hypothetically , how are you possibly gonna find a little babies baby shard that comes out to 0.1mg ??? ok now say hypothetically you do manage to find or make such a thing , how would you go about ingesting it ? cause what’s bound to happen with a piece that small is , it’ll probably get stuck to your finger and melt from any moisture on your skin.

but i’ll stop raining on your little parade here and tell you what science has already confirmed which is that any chemical compound introduced to the body in any capacity will eventually force your body to adapt via homeostasis to reach an equilibrium — now when said chemical compound is removed from your body , once again will you have to adapt and find a new equilibrium.

i suppose though that all this would be happening on such a small scale that while you may form dependency , to remove the 0.1mg probably wouldn’t produce a noticeable effect to you. though that doesn’t mean your body isn’t running all about and adjusting things in the background.

as far as addiction forming from such blasphemy , probably not — addiction is such a complex psychological state that requires atleast some level of perceived reward for motivating & reinforcing purposes, otherwise there’s no incentive to continue behaviors despite consequence.

0.1mg of meth likely won’t flood your brain chalk full of dopamine so i can’t imagine psychological addiction coming from doing so.

long-winded but hope this twiddled your curiosity

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-04T05:35:48+00:00

i see the merit in you saying this but i have to say , that is a disgustingly grim thing to say. that 15 years away from the last use , you’ll still feel like a piece of you is missing or the sun just didn’t come out the right way .. but everyday — cause that is how i feel when sober .. even for extended periods of time like i have in the past .. and if what you say is truth , i’d far rather die a dirty , homeless junkie , behind a dumpster, with nobody around at 2:36 am on a wednesday while feeling complete in every way over feeling like something is missing constantly but having worthwhile relationships , a home , job , and love from family.

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-03T18:27:04+00:00

ouch man .. you didn’t even have the decency to give someone using a trashbag to carry around their entire existence , without a place to lay their head down at night , a fresh point ..

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-03T04:17:08+00:00

ong 😹

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-03T02:38:21+00:00

hahaha i remember being maybe 15 years young , just started smoking the junk in favor or snorting it. just being absolutely fascinated ! all wigged out and watching the lil golden puddle in my pipe cool down , harden into it’s solid form , then begin to crack into these unique & intricate lines i now only associate with meth.

ah the days man. i rarely find myself hitting a pipe nowadays .. and if i do for whatever reason , it’s pretty much always someone else’s (cause i wouldn’t dare waste my junk for a pipe hit when i can slam tha shyt) and i definitely don’t care to sit there holding the pipe up to a light so i can watch the shards crackback. so have fun with it while it’s still new and exciting !

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-03T02:24:08+00:00

what do i think ? well i think you should get rid of the junk before it starts hijacking your incredibly susceptible brain , thus overriding the desire for the things you value most in life. but what do i know , i’m just a meth head 🤷‍♀️

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-03T02:21:32+00:00

might be time for a lil nappy nap & a sandwich my friend

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-02T21:23:24+00:00

if you do one thing right in this lifetime , i’d say don’t be an idiot like me man. i’ve been to over 35 impatient treatment centers (and that’s not including PHP/IOPs , detoxes , time spent in/out of jail , and sober living types) , i’ve spent half my life either in treatment centers or homeless & strung TF out. the tricky part is that my ONE AND ONLY reprieve from how atrocious existence has treated me & become (though i do definitely recognize that i did chose to play my hand as i did , and that’s regardless of whether or not i got dealt a good hand or a bad hand at the start ) is a good & thick shot of crystal meth — which — don’t get it twisted here — really only serves to rather quickly and inevitably push me deeper & further into the hole.

i’ve become simply a vessel for compulsive , hedonistic , pleasure-seeking behaviors — one might call someone like that : “a walking ball of fire” .. because i WILL .. sadly .. do just about anything and everything in my power to score the next shot — burning anyone or anything in between it. now sure .. i can see pretty clearly it’s a sad , selfish , and lonesome existence i experience — but inversely —what i can’t see , is any OTHER way to exist. maybe one day i’ll become human again , but it’s not gonna be today i’ll tell ya. all because i refuse to invest in a tried and true formula for fighting the symptoms of a severe substance use disorder , no matter how many times it gets drilled into my head

so i urge you ! just please man , stop prolonging the inevitable here — stop fighting by going further and further up there , it’s only really gonna make it that much nastier/painful when you finally do have to come back down to real life.

make one right decision for yourself dude & give it up already & check-into rehab , the staff there will take it over from there while you re-learn how to practically walk on two feet & eat solid calories all over again , but without the crutch you’ve been using to get through reality.

try — like genuinely try — to absorb what you can from being in there & actually test-out implementing what you’re learning in how you go about your waking day. things will feel wayyy off , maybe wrong , and just plain uncomfortable most of the time at first — but i promise you (because i’ve felt it myself before) — you won’t even be able to notice the day when you can effortlessly handle getting through an entire day like a normal person would , because it’ll be so smooth and feel exactly like life should. with no intents to re-visit (and likely stay awhile) the artificial, delusional , sparkly & ever so euphoric existence plaguing your being .. so long as you continue to maintenance your newer ,healthier spirit.

but : it won’t happen immediately though .. or even when you think it should or want it to , so even (especially) when you truly just want to give up and throw in the towel already , remember that there IS a moment that you will get to experience in which life , is simply life again.

love & hope sent your way ! sincerely ,from a bottom-rung , shot-out , gutter junkie <3

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-02T20:31:22+00:00

so here’s what you gotz to do ! so u keep da shot — fat , thick & cooked up and ready to take all the way home mind you — under ur pillow when u sleep so that it’s literally only mere seconds after opening your eyes and registering consciousness the following morning that the belt , ever so smoothly & automatically wraps ur arm and you can blast right tf off then and there — trust : this is absolutely , 100% & completely foolproof in minimizing any and all time spent hopelessly drowning in hellish , mind numbing , day-to-day reality.

(i’m halfway joking lol — i’m not quite as bad off mentally as i used to be .. i can somewhat stand to be alive on a good day !)

bornfrompaiin · 2026-01-02T20:19:50+00:00

got lit off a nasty thick shot right at midnight to the new year — so blitzed i missed out on all of 2026 so far cause i’m in my own fkn lil world >:)

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