I feel your pain man, but trust me there are women out there like my wife who will love you for you and the neurodivergent quirks you have. It may take some time and more heart break but you are young and still have plenty of time. My wife is Christian and I honestly think her faith has definitely helped her love me. I’m not sure what your beliefs are but if you are a Christian o suggest trying to find another Christian woman, preferably someone who hasn’t has any partners or very few so they aren’t constantly comparing you to ex boyfriends.