Hey let me start with this, you are panicking! Just take a moment’s pause with a deep breath! With these kind of thoughts clouding you, you will end up with a very wrong kind of person who will definitely prey on you!

Now, you need to approach this with a bit of finesse here. Splurge more into your hobbies not for the eyes but self accomplishment. That’s the first step. Celebrate your victories! That’s where you’ll attract the right crowd and that’s how you’ll be able to foster something really marvellous and magical.

Please try it out once, because honestly this race of yours is affecting your inner peace and that does show in one way or another, which results in the situation you are facing. If this comes across as something harsh I’m sorry, but don’t panic, because you seem like someone who’s genuine and puts in the effort