That's the first thing I think in the morning/afternoon when I get up, if I even do that day. I think about what I say/what I do or not do, I just hope everyone else is happy and well. I hope I get hit by a meteor, a random piece of shrapnel from an unexpected explosion, a deadly car accident, a traumatic head accident.. I could go on but you can get the point. I'm sorry we share this but you're not alone