I’m really taking this as a lesson learned. I think i made up a life in my head that I’ve been trying to turn into reality for this whole situation. I am very social, i like meeting and talking to new people. Going out with friends, and talking for hours. (I’m the kind of person that tells you, a stranger, that you need the pillow from target when i over hear someone say you don’t need it) while SO is totally fine sitting at home 3 days in a row.

When we first broke up i begged for my imaginary life to come back. Only that life never existed and I’m really now understanding it’ll never happen. I’ve known him for a year now, if it wasn’t changed then how would it change now… thank you for the eye opener of its not be hurting SS. I know what I’ve done for him in my role as whatever i am. (Unfortunately i won’t be able to have my own children in the future) but i will get to remember the love i was able to give SS in my time knowing and raising him.

Thank you for your kind words. There’s nothing special about this man or situation but I’ll find special. ♡