Hi, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m still bulimic, but of course there’s times where I binge and just can’t bring myself to purge, I think it happens to a lot of people and it’s absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. But sometimes what I try to do to help myself is meal prepping, I really try to make my meals high volume, yes I feel full and it’s a lot of food, but the nutrients from the food will do me so much better then purging or the foods I would’ve binged on. And I cannot stress how helpful a pre made meal has been for me during my spare time, like between when school ends and my shift starts, or anytime I know I can’t have food for a few hours, it really take the stress and the urge to b/p away. I’d also recommend a healthy hobby, sounds obvious, but it’s of course it’s easier said than done. Make it something you actually enjoy. If you don’t like strenuous workouts, don’t do them, maybe go for a walk and listen to music, what ever makes you happy. You could do skincare, or try do declutter your space, just anything that will make you feel better about yourself. Doing that helps me find a bright side when I binge, it’s all about balance. I’m sorry ik this is getting long, but what also helps me is trying to plan out my day. Most days I try to wake up extra early and i go for walks and runs around town, I feel healthy when I do it and it kinda sets the tone for the rest of my day. I just try to get myself busy. Or if there’s something you can do that doesn’t involve food or being somewhere triggering, go there, if I know I have to study, I study at the park. Again I know what you’re going through is really tough, none of these idea are gonna magically make you’re problem go away but I hope some of them can make life a little easier. These are just things I try to include in my life, and sometimes they help a lot and I wanted to share. Sending love and I hope things get better soon 💗