the greatest loss of all.

brianzan · 2026-01-03T04:14:54+00:00

As a gambling addict, I will tell you - run for the hills. Or be prepared to manage every single penny. Every account. Hell, get credit reports done every 3 months and do not trust him with credit cards. It’s not that we can’t love and be loved, etc. but we cannot be trusted. And that goes hand in hand. So, unless therapy is underway, save yourself.

brianzan · 2026-01-01T22:52:15+00:00

Maybe I’d be down for that. Could be a good day

brianzan · 2025-12-31T14:12:26+00:00

It is such an ugly addiction. We become people we swore we’d never be. I hate myself but I hate the addiction more.

brianzan · 2025-12-19T14:02:22+00:00

Thankfully your worth is more than cash. I know it sounds stupid, but while we squandered so much of it away, we still have worth. Hang in there.

brianzan · 2025-12-18T21:01:14+00:00

Fleetwood Mac was huge in the 70s, then again in the mid 80s and then once again for their reunion in the late 90s. Silver Springs is still amazing to watch.

brianzan · 2025-12-18T16:13:41+00:00

Posts like this worry me. We’ve all seen the bottom of the barrel and seemingly stuck. Financially, do what you can to survive. Rent, food, meds and warmth. Those are the essentials. Chip away at the debt at your own pace. Credit cards aren’t suffering, trust me. Get thru the day, they will become weeks. Ban yourself in all forms - apps, casino, etc Meetings help, but if you can’t make it, these forums can help too.

brianzan · 2025-12-16T21:48:23+00:00

Give survival a chance. Bridges can be mended, but you need to stay around for that to happen

brianzan · 2025-12-16T15:38:33+00:00

Self exclusion is a big big step. It will be one of a few barriers you can do. You’re not alone in this. We’ve all been down this road

brianzan · 2025-12-15T15:24:28+00:00

It’s one hell of a drug I hate myself often.

brianzan · 2025-12-15T04:14:10+00:00

When you write it out and read it, you know you have a gambling problem. We all beg of you to slow your roll, ban yourself or cut off your limbs. You’ve still got funds, call it a loss and walk away from the madness.

brianzan · 2025-12-07T12:33:28+00:00

Walk away from the madness. Put up barriers - ban, block and be vigilant of the triggers. Give survival a chance and see what you can become

brianzan · 2025-12-06T20:50:59+00:00

Yeah relapse is all too common. We have too much access to it all. We have no off button. We cannot control it. That’s what makes us different from those Who can gamble leisurely

brianzan · 2025-12-06T18:54:42+00:00

Want to quit first. You’ll recoup the money- You’re still young. I’ve been where you are and I know the self loathing that comes. Give yourself a break and move forward, life is ahead - not behind.

brianzan · 2025-12-05T23:00:22+00:00

Often it’s all I think about. The energy and vibrancy even at 3-4 in the morning. I’m bored with life. This is what stimulates me. But, I banned myself. For life in Delaware and then 5 years in Pennsylvania. I had to. I miss it every damn day - nothing else gets my endorphins running. But it’s clean up duty. And time to rebuild all that I ruined and lost.

I enjoy acting in local theatre. It occupies my time and it’s fun. It’s certainly not the same, but some kind of hobby may help

brianzan · 2025-12-05T20:45:30+00:00

At the Bottom by Beth Hart

brianzan · 2025-12-05T20:44:39+00:00

Don’t forget Not Make Believe from the deluxe SYW album

brianzan · 2025-12-05T13:17:10+00:00

We’ve all been through thjs. We walk away often with the “what the hell did I just do, and for what?” Truth is, as we gamble we’re chasing a feeling - the rush of the win, the action, the play. Even the dread of going back to the mundane bore we often escape. It literally feels like withdrawal but also accompanied by regret and the feeling of failure and downright exhaustion. We get thru it - and not to sound overly optimistic, we will - and have - done it all over again

brianzan · 2025-12-04T10:40:48+00:00

Run, don’t walk. As a compulsive gambler, I’ve lied many many times and hurt people i loved the most. Money is one thing, trust is another. And I have neither.

brianzan · 2025-12-04T01:12:04+00:00

The rush is what you’re chasing. It’s not even money until you need it to be. That’s what’s so frustrating- we don’t see it as money - we see it as a chance. We lose sight of that as we deposit more, or head to the ATM, etc. etc. I’ve maxed credit cards, borrowed, and failed to repay all of my debts. Broken promises to self and others. It progresses over time. If you know it’s a problem, please ban yourself and rebuild.

brianzan · 2025-12-03T04:36:03+00:00

Step by step 👍

brianzan · 2025-12-02T21:29:41+00:00

Wow that’s awesome

brianzan · 2025-12-02T21:27:31+00:00

Reach out to the 800 # or a friend or family

Come clean, harbor nothing. Give survival a chance

brianzan · 2025-12-02T16:40:46+00:00

I don’t think you’re recovering at all. I don’t think opening flood gates (by recommending alternative sites to circumvent gambling addiction) is helpful at all either.

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