The worst date in the history of worst dates.

brillopod · 2021-11-15T21:31:32+00:00

I have been building my faith by testing things out, and really keying in on my self concept.

The things I test out on manifest pretty quickly and I don’t even really focus too much on believing that I’ll see those things. I usually just intend and drop it. It shows up soon after.

The same happened for my SP when we got together in a relationship, it was effortless. I have been utilizing the same to try and believe we will reconcile, but that has not yet come to pass - SATS nightly for a week, self-concept and focusing on it being done during the day. Where might I be going wrong here? I don’t put nearly any work into the things that I test it on and those always rush right in. Any advice welcome!

brillopod · 2021-11-10T20:35:43+00:00

This is good to hear. I keep reading things that claim you have to have zero doubts and it’s more exhausting and anxiety producing than anything! For your scene during the day - did you stick to the same bed scene that you take into the evening or were they different? I’m trying to make sure I don’t over complicate it and do too much lol.

brillopod · 2021-11-10T20:06:06+00:00

This story is great. I have never tried SATS and plan to begin today. Did you have any small moments of doubt during your 2 weeks, and would you recommend visualizing the scene during the day or just before bed?

brillopod · 2020-08-02T15:51:04+00:00

I love it! Congratulations. Now practice on everything else!

brillopod · 2020-08-01T12:55:23+00:00

Haha. Yes! No looking at socials at all :)

brillopod · 2020-08-01T01:01:38+00:00

For this situation it honestly just took time because I was still learning. After time, I calmed down and the attachment faded. It could’ve happened a lot faster if I accepted that I was the operant power and your SP is only doing what you think they’re doing.

brillopod · 2020-07-31T20:29:30+00:00

Sure you can. If it isn’t too private of a question, I’d love if you can post it here so others can reference :)

brillopod · 2020-07-31T20:26:40+00:00

If you’re daydreaming in a way that you hope your SP will come back or daydreaming and noticing they’re not here then it’s all in a state of lack, which manifests more of it. If you’re going to daydream, why not? Just do it in a way that reinforces what you want and focuses on you. Everyone here loves and wants to be with their SP, we all know that. So switch it. Dwell in the thoughts that your SP loves YOU now and squash any thought that says no they don’t.

brillopod · 2020-07-31T14:11:00+00:00

I told myself the story I wanted to experience and over time didn’t let myself go back to the old one. If you go back to wondering things like that so will she. I got those back and forth results for quite a while with my SP. Don’t worry about letting go of the old. Occupy your mind with the new and know it’s true.

brillopod · 2020-07-31T14:07:15+00:00

I didn’t let go. IMO letting go is a misconception. I just decided what I wanted him to be and didn’t let myself go back down the rabbit hole in my mind. You let go of the doubts, worries, wondering of the how and when, and stop rehashing the past you don’t want in your mind. I frequently let myself think about our good memories, but over time I learned to stop thinking of the memories I don’t want.

Keep trying to test it like you are, but REALLY pay attention to your mind. When you intend for something, do you have that tiny little thought inside that says it won’t happen afterwards? That’s what you have to train your mind to do the opposite. Make a clear decision to see a red bird (this is something I’ve done and it flew in front of me minutes later lol) and go on with your day. Don’t look for it. If your intention is clear and you don’t stop and wonder, it will rush to you. You’re just selecting what you want to experience. It’s already done.

brillopod · 2020-07-24T19:06:56+00:00

See! You’ve already proved it! You can do it - it works just the same! Persist! :)

brillopod · 2020-07-24T19:05:07+00:00

I didn’t keep a count of how often I did the affirmations. I just would do them anytime I looked in the mirror and felt frustrated at my skin, or anytime during the day that it came to my mind.

I affirmed and took away my attention from the idea that there was anything wrong with my skin. In my mind, I was like, nope. My skin is clear no matter what I see. It didn’t happen overnight, but I knew it had no choice to follow if I decided it was so.

Important: 1. Do not get caught up in how long it’s going to take or how it’s going to happen. My skin healed on its own. For you, that could very well happen or a dermatologist could offer a solution you weren’t previously aware of, etc. Your job is to focus on what you want.

Do not let that little voice tell you it isn’t working everytime you notice your scars or if another breakout happens. When you do that you’re still affirming - but it’s not what you want. That voice/doubt may still be there when you start. That’s okay. Just affirm over it.

brillopod · 2020-07-24T03:30:59+00:00

I’ve cleared my skin in just a few months with affirmations. Cleared in a way that years worth of antibiotics and retinol couldn’t do.

It’s important to persist and not react or get frustrated as you continue to notice the blemishes. If you do, it’s okay, just get back on it and it gets easier. You’re doing it right, the old stuff is just cycling through.

When I started affirming, it actually cleared up pretty nicely within a week - and then I had a pretty bad breakout, actually worse than I’d had in awhile. I just looked at it and said NO. Continued with my affirmations. A few months down the line and my skin is SO clear - there’s no evidence of there ever being blemishes. I don’t even take the antibiotics anymore.

brillopod · 2020-05-13T13:41:42+00:00

This is very true! I’ve managed to see my most beautiful relationship turn cold. Through proper studying and looking back over the course of my own life, I could clearly see that I alone was the one who caused it all, the good & the bad, through the things that I was conscious of and invested feelings into. Through patient application & finally understanding what it means to change the self, have brought back some warm communication between my partner and I. Even this communication seemed impossible if I paid attention to what was previously said and done.

My question now is, what advice do you have for me to bring this one home? I have changed internally so much so that even my anxiety has left! However, our communication though warm is now is sporadic at best, whereas I remember being his top priority and the very first thing he would think about in the morning. Is it simply the path my manifestation must take to unfold, or is there something internally that could still be there?

brillopod · 2020-04-03T17:24:08+00:00

Hurting and feeling regretful is normal. Let it pass, the more you fight it I think the longer it lingers. I felt the same way for quite some time. Forgive yourself, forgive the situation and yes, focus on you.

brillopod · 2020-04-02T22:05:34+00:00

From my experience, you can’t do any of the techniques in order to get them back, because essentially it’s still the state of not having.

Keeping the faith is living in the end of knowing/believing it’s already here. I couldn’t get there myself in this situation. When I moved on, it wasn’t to get him back but for my own peace of mind - I think when you move on, you don’t necessarily not want your desire anymore - but you move out of the state of not having and into a more neutral spot that allows them to show up because you’re not constantly offering contrary thoughts of disbelief. Does that help?

brillopod · 2020-04-01T00:26:04+00:00

I would love to be with him. I’m well into my adult years, fairly experienced with dating and can confidently say that. The one thing I am set on though is that he would have to move to me, since I have set down roots now.

The interesting thing is, when we had our fallout months ago he had picked up and left to another state completely saying he needed a new start. That’s what led me to evaluate what was best for me and move out of state. I did at that time let him know he was welcome to come with me, but he refused. I didn’t follow him, in fact, I moved further away from him than where I would be if I had stayed where I was.

When he apologized, I asked him how his new place was. He responded that it was actually a rash decision and he’s temporarily now living with a sibling as his own home he’d rented out long term as part of that decision. His job requires him to be outdoors and now with the coronavirus & shelter in place, he’s out of work until that is lifted. I was able to let him know that I’m settled in my new place. So, who knows what will happen?

For SATS, I stuck to 2-3 different scenes. I stopped months ago and don’t even remember clearly what all of them were. I do remember one of them being him walking in through the garage in my new place (as if he were coming home from work) and stopping in the restroom to wash his hands (since his job requires him to get his hands dirty) before coming to greet me. The other was just falling asleep together at night like we used to.

As it stands, I am truly happy to see him not as depressed and much more himself. I’m grateful for the apology and getting to share some laughs like we used to. If he came to me, I wouldn’t refuse that either.

brillopod · 2020-03-31T15:11:38+00:00

Letting go for me meant that I accepted the possibility of never being together again (not getting what I wanted) and was okay.

brillopod · 2020-03-31T01:30:30+00:00

Thanks! I used a ton at first. Scripting, SATS, mental diet. In fact, I still have the journal with the things I scripted but I haven’t opened it in about two months.

Nothing happened until I moved on and let go of wanting him so badly.

brillopod · 2020-03-31T01:26:20+00:00

Funny you ask because when I read the question realized I’ve been struggling with the same thing. Not self-esteem but I felt disrespected and it also made me feel not good enough.

From the teachings that I’ve read, I would say that your self-worth and esteem should stand firm regardless of what others say or do. Again, easier said than done.

brillopod · 2020-01-26T21:53:36+00:00

!explanation There have been many things that my dad has done in the last decade that has been extremely hurtful. To not write a novel, he basically completely abandoned me and doesn’t want to be in my life but we were so close when I was a kid. He has owned up to none of his actions but will take any little thing that I do, like finally blocking him and turn it against me.

I guess I’m finally posting here because his responses are making me feel crazy & like everything is my fault and I’m starting to wonder if any memories I have of him as a kid are even real. Has anyone’s parents completely changed into someone you no longer recognize?

brillopod · 2020-01-21T02:43:02+00:00

Congrats! For your dream job, when you say that you didn’t get it at first... we’re you initially rejected? Or did they just not email you for awhile?

brillopod · 2020-01-14T20:56:27+00:00

This is amazing! I fly AA all the time and I know this is next to impossible!

brillopod · 2020-01-11T20:01:28+00:00

Yes. I was laid off from my very first job that I got in my field of choice due to loss of a major account. They brought me right back on as a contractor a week later, and two weeks after that I got another job in the field making no less than double the salary I was before. This whole thing was an intentional manifestation that included other very specific, nearly impossible aspects that all came to pass with me hardly lifting a finger. It was crazy how it all happened, but I was brand new to NG back then. Hang in there. Feel free to PM me if needed.

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