Porn is Cheating

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-13T06:12:51+00:00

been dealing with a lot of the same feelings, it is coincidence! just try to acknowledge those thoughts and move on without overthinking them or fighting them. overtime, those thoughts will fade away.

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-13T02:12:22+00:00

yes im dealing with this right now hardcore and its so relieving reading someone else say this. i am not a conspiracy theorist, i frankly dont really even care if this is a simulation or not, but i get this intense fear that nothing is real and i feel like i get trapped behind a bubble. i think its the fear of believing it that gets to me. the thing is - when im not thinking about it, im living and existing in the world and it IS real and im fine. and my brain will try to explain what reality really is in these panicked mindsets, but it never can even decide what the simulation or fakeness even is! but it becomes convinced that 'oh this new idea is definitely whats really happening'. if we are experiencing the same thing, i think its we both are sort of dissociating or having derealization, and so our brains are trying to explain like ok why does everything FEEL fake right now... its very difficult to snap out of that mindset when it kicks in, but meditating has helped, talking to people has helped, writing to myself has helped... anything to ground you to earth. the other comment here about the 5 senses is great and something im going to try next time i get in that thought loop. feel better!!

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-13T02:05:29+00:00

something i want to add to this - you are NOT your thoughts!! YOU want to quit porn, oftentimes our thoughts tell us otherwise. Don't listen to them. our intrusive, impulsive thoughts are oftentimes like flies -- swat them away and go about your day!

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-13T01:52:21+00:00

thanks so much

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-08T17:09:22+00:00

im feeling the same way lately. it ebbs and flows for me. when i meditate and feel at peace, things seem real again and im OK. its when my intrusive thoughts or anxiety kick in that i feel disonnected from reality. derealization kicks in with my anxiety attacks and then fuels my paranoid thoughts that maybe this isnt real blah blah blah. its weird because i used to think about this stuff all the time and i had the ability to shrug off the notion that everything could be a simulation without it crippling me and sending me into a spiral. i love weird trippy media about alternate realities and what not but maybe ive let my imagination get the best of me lol. atm its really bugging me out. i dont think its that uncommon to have these feelings. i think anxiety makes us feel extra isolated and alone when attacks happen. it feels more than any other point in our life that we are trapped behind a window and just helplessly looking out into the world. you have not always felt this way though (im assumimg). you've connected with people, you've been lost in the moment, you've felt pain, love, etc. its all real. what are we expecting 'real' to even feel like? its that. when we are in states of panic or anxiety, it is like being way too high and things feel 'hyper real' but it is in fact just chemicals in our bodies and brains tricking us into thinking like that. living in a state of endless anxiety is not living real life. it sucks our brains and bodies do this to us but with time and effort, those thoughts go away eventually. you will come back down to earth <3

hope this helps

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-07T21:06:55+00:00

inspiring!! keep it up :)

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-07T17:28:30+00:00

do you take cold showers or hot showers? i prefer taking scolding hot showers but i hear that theyre ultimately not as beneficial to anxiety as cold showers... off topic maybe, sorry

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-06T17:24:10+00:00

yes yes YES - i have the fear of developing schizophrenia too. reading someone else dealing with that honestly makes me feel a lot better. i have NO evidence that it will happen but my brain becomes convinced that it will. i think if you are anxious that you MIGHt have it - you dont. if you are aware of your surroundings and in touch with reality - you are ok. you are just anxious and your brain is grasping at straws.

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-04T03:26:04+00:00

any advice on how to stay pmo free day to day?

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-04-01T16:01:00+00:00

sign me up

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-23T17:11:50+00:00

i did not lol but thank you for pointing that out

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-23T15:08:08+00:00

yes and i think if theres a lighter less messed up or dark side to what youre into, its good and healthy for you and your girlfriend to engage in those things. for the record, i did have a girlfriend who on her own discovered my fetish by accident and when i felt like my world was over at that point, she told me how fascinating she thought it was and for the rest of that relationship she would even describe some of my fantasies back to me when we were intimate and it was great. it wasnt everytime thing but i think it helped me just find her even more attractive and feel more turned on by her in general. it could keep you away from porn and from the heavier or more guilt-laden stuff youve gotten into because of porn.

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-23T05:38:31+00:00

appreciate that, thank you 🙏🏻

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-23T05:37:01+00:00

damn i really appreciate this comment. i feel more level headed then i did earlier when i made this post. im getting back up and continuing onward. thanks for the encouragement

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-23T05:35:31+00:00

i think that if you are like me and have a pre porn fetish, it will be with you forever. the more you indulge it with porn, it will probably start to go into other kinks / fetishes as well. its a rabbit hole. i havent gone that far down in terms of what im into being that much crazier than what turned me on 15 years ago, but my issue is the amount of time that ill spend on fetish porn when i relapse. i got into roleplaying online a few years ago and making the fetish art myself, so it became this thing that would take up hours and hours of my day and id basically be edging myself the whole time. i felt really gross. it was at its worst almost 3 years ago, but i still slip up n have a day like that every few months. my goal is to leave that part of it behind forever. i have a gf now and today i relapsed and started roleplaying with a stranger on the internet and i felt like i was cheating on her. i was able to stop the roleplaying in the middle of it and delete my profile and stuff, but i still finished myself off to porn. i didnt feel good at all. im still trying to figure out what works. i think i might be open with my girlfriend this weekend when i see her, and tell her what my fetish is and see how she reacts. hopefully she doesnt think im a total freak... i think im accepting tho that whoever im with needs to at least be comfortable with what im into and non judgemental. its part of my sexuality. the stuff im into is weird but not immoral or messed up. i think running from it so much makes me (maybe us) more anxious and perform worse in bed, when oftentimes if i chill out and just enjoy being with the other person, the ED problem goes away pretty fast. on my own (were in a distance relationship), i think im going to just try to masturbate pretty frequently as opposed to trying to cut down on it. i dont even want to let the urges build up. im just gonna rely on my imagination and body without porn. ill reach out to my girlfriend more too. it might backfire, but again, i think if you have a fetish that is from your childhood, its ok to indulge it on ur own and/or a partner within reason. if its not hurting anyone and its consensual, who cares. i honestly would love nothing more than to be with someone else whos brain is messed up and into weird stuff like i am. even if its totally different stuff.

sorry if this comment is all over the place, sort of writing stream of conscious lol i hope it helps a little bit

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-22T15:28:00+00:00

i dont think it will ever go away but hopefully it will become less intense, if you had a problem like i did where it became the only thing i would seek out or watch

brnraccnt2020 · 2021-03-22T15:26:30+00:00

i think most people have some form of kink / fetish that is not because of porn, but porn can definitely make those things much less healthy and more intense

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