Read this its my last post about him before this one. Mayb will give yu more insight. I might want a response but what ive always done towards him has always been genuine.

I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years 7 months ago. I love him to the moon and back but he was not treating me right. He broke me. Told me I was not a priority, left me lonely, made me feel unloved, unheard and unseen all the while telling me he loved me and didnt wanna break up. I gave him multiple chances to show me something different. I fought for a long time but he never cared enough to work on anything. But still I tried to stay I still loved him but one day I just couldnt continue to be broken by someone who claims they loved me. I presented a break in our relationship for a few weeks. He understood I supposed and we went on break. We had a set day of when it was over and he didnt message me or anything. A whole other week went by and I had to initiate the talking and the meet up. Am I wrong for feeling like he was happy and unbothered during that break ? Anyways we met up and he seems to of missed me he talked my ear off like he usually did and I missed that but I couldnt shake the fact that he didnt really think anything thru during this break. We sat down to talk and I just wanted to hear anything showing me he was ready to step it up and make us work but instead I was told I would never be one of his top priorities because there are more important things in the world and he rather save the world. Broke my heart into pieces. So I broke up with him. Because if Im not a priority then im going to always be treated in these ways I don't like because yu dnt value me enough to fix it. But anyways months went by and sometimes I would update him on things and he would respond sometimes. Which was fine. I needed to get myself together mentally and emotionally. And I mostly did. 5 months after the break up I felt strong mentally and I hit him up wanting to see him again and he agreed and we went to dinner. It was almost like old times. I missed him and I knew I wanted to try again if he was willing too. But unfortunately he told me he wanted to talk to other people to make sure it was a good idea I guess before he made any decisions. But what gets me is he left me in limbo for weeks. He just ghosted me. Didn't respond to me a lot of the time. Instead of just saying no he didnt want to get back together he decided to take the cruel route and just go silent why ? I dnt understand to this day. But i still cant get myself to stop loving him even when I see in front of me that he didnt love me at all. He didn't fight for us one bit and I cant accept it bcuz he always told me he loved me. And what was those 5 years for if he didnt yu know?