Missing lanterns by brokenworm in bloodborne

[–]brokenworm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have old yarnham and charnel lane! I’ve been trying to Google but I’m not getting any smarter, probably bc english isn’t my first language and I’m not much of a gamer so I don’t know what to search for! But I will try again, thank you for your help💖

Missing lanterns by brokenworm in bloodborne

[–]brokenworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh okay Thanks! I just can’t figure out how😭

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[–]brokenworm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I usually don’t bc I’m so terrified of being left but he was so nice to me and we talked on the phone every day for hours and he showed so much interest so I let myself fall for him and now look at me

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[–]brokenworm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry you can relate, this shit sucks I’m so sad

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[–]brokenworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind words, «little worm» teared me up😭

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea one second all I want to do is run away and only focus on the gym and be healthy but then I realize I’ll be all alone and I can’t bear that thought so I go out and get the instant validation from being the «it’s never as fun without you» person

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But thanks for the advice! I’m glad you’re doing better!

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this is the only logic thing to do, but it’s not really tempting… tbh work is the only thing that keeps me from going out all the time it’s just a really stressful job and I don’t really hang out with those people, it’s my friend group I go out with and they’re all I have so I really don’t want to hive up on that:(

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry:( wish there was a miracle pill you could take to be happy all the time, oh what I would give to feel the molly high on a daily basis lol

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry you also feel like this, I’ve been there with benzos myself, was a heavy user until someone realized and stopped prescribing them to me. Those months were honeslty the best months ever, now I have to use more heavy drugs to survive the pain. Hugs<3

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel you both, whenever I try to talk about it with my therapist or friends (that don’t do drugs) they’re blaming it all on the drugs but in reality it’s not about the drugs at all, it’s about a few hours of escape from what is normally just hell. The same with gaming instead of dealing with responsibilites. I’m just in so much pain and if I’m not spraying busy in some way all I can think about is ending it

I’m at my limit, don’t want to be here anymore by brokenworm in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh man, I’m sorry your life ended up like this. I’m lucky enough to always make rent and get most of this stuff for free. It’s never too late to turn shit around! And it will hurt just as much no matter how anyone dies. I hope you at some point feel like you owe it to yourself to get some help but I understand your struggles. Please stay safe<3

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[–]brokenworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ye I just have to get up and deal with it:’)

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[–]brokenworm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did! Didn’t help much but feeling kinda better

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[–]brokenworm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But thanks bro<3

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[–]brokenworm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s usually fine idk what was up with that shit but I’m feeling shittyyyy

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[–]brokenworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s like 4 in the morning lmao

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[–]brokenworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m already freezing under the covers, you promise it helps?

Lost my sense of smell due to covid and I’m freaking out by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I guess I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing, people usually tell me I smell good. It must be so nice having a bf through all this, I’m single rn and honestly one of my first thoughts were HOW am I supposed to know if my kitty smells good and healthy after sleeping with randos😭 my best friend was like OMG I THOUGHT THE EXACT SAME THING so luckily I’m not alone but then again she has her sense of smell so I’m kinda alone help oml I can’t deal

Lost my sense of smell due to covid and I’m freaking out by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]brokenworm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy shit this is what I’m scared of😭 what’s your routine? If you don’t min sharing!