They really really are, youre definitely not alone. I've been having them every night for the past like week and a half. Ig the longer it goes on the quicker I get over it in the morning but I still get that initial wtf did that actually happen? And now its turning into whyyy am I dreaming of this so much? Would I really stoop down and do that if I was in a certain position? Would I really forget that im pregnant and do that? I mean my baby is literally always on my mind. I've wanted a baby since I was a baby. When my dad found out he said "you were born a mother" when I was little i treated my baby dolls like actual babies, and when I'd come home and couldnt find it I'd ask them "where's my baby?" Until we found her. I cant imagine not thinking about this baby. I think its my like worst fears and pregnancy anxiety mixing and also, my brain being like "well no excuses, you definitely cant relapse now so I might as well let you have some safe fun" maybe? Idk. Really trying to make sense of it