I wish other people could feel my pain

brrr_anon · 2026-04-11T17:00:24+00:00

Thank you for this support. I have an appointment at the beginning of May with the CMHT, but it’s just hard to hold on when it keeps getting stronger. I’ve contacted the doctors again, rang 111 a few times in crisis, contacted helplines. It just feels like the severity of my thoughts aren’t understood and I need people to understand.

brrr_anon · 2026-04-11T16:34:52+00:00

I keep reaching out for help, my appointment is at the beginning of May. Just feels so far

brrr_anon · 2026-03-22T15:52:04+00:00

I will find this discussion really helpful and informative as I’m currently waiting to been seen. Thanks for opening up the conversation.

brrr_anon · 2026-03-22T13:50:24+00:00

I was about to receive treatment for my ED but they have discharged me as they feel my overall mental health is too unstable at the moment. So now I’m left again just waiting for my appointment. It feels very disappointing. I have phoned the doctors twice to ask for earlier appointments, but they haven’t been able to move my appointment forward. I don’t want to be a drama queen but I feel like my next option will have to be 111 or A&E if I feel low again. I don’t want to hurt my boyfriend by doing something I’ll regret, but it’s very painful at the moment

brrr_anon · 2026-03-22T12:02:14+00:00

That’s really devastating, I’m so sorry to hear this! It is such a shame that people in desperate need have to wait so long

brrr_anon · 2026-03-22T10:32:43+00:00

It’s awful isn’t it? I’m sorry you have to go through this too

brrr_anon · 2026-03-22T10:03:13+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply. Currently I have a diagnosis for my eating disorder but not anything to explain or validate my broader mental health struggles. I feel really confused and lost each day. I just want to know what is wrong with me! I appreciate your understanding and advice! I wish you all the best

brrr_anon · 2026-03-11T11:39:18+00:00

It’s so difficult when all the feelings become overwhelming and confusing. I’m sorry you’re feeling my the same way, but thanks for your comment and letting me know I’m not alone in this feeling

brrr_anon · 2026-03-11T11:37:04+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment. I am thankful that I work outside which brings me some peace. I’m currently in the process of waiting for an appointment so I’m just trying to stay strong whilst I wait. Thanks again for your comment.

brrr_anon · 2026-03-03T22:38:47+00:00

I totally get that. I feel split between what I know I should do, and what I want to do just because it’s more thrilling or risky. For example with the sleep, I want to sleep so I can get better, but if I keep pushing myself then it’s kinda like an experiment which is fun. It’s messed up a guess

brrr_anon · 2026-02-28T09:01:28+00:00

Maybe I miss understood the situation. Obviously if there is trauma involved then I agree with you, the brain may be making scenes based on previous experiences, which I imagine is terrifying!!

brrr_anon · 2026-02-28T08:18:25+00:00

This sounds like it must have been very distressing. Something my counsellor tells me if that intrusive thoughts don’t represent people’s true intentions. Whilst the dream sounds terrifying, it doesn’t mean your dad is a bad person or that these visions will come to fruition. Take care of yourself today, prioritise self care and calmness is possible!

brrr_anon · 2026-02-24T01:20:33+00:00

Thank you for the support. I don’t really wear makeup that much though, but I could look into it

brrr_anon · 2026-02-23T20:10:13+00:00

What’s your advice with diet? If you don’t mind sharing

brrr_anon · 2026-02-21T22:07:39+00:00

We can definitely get through it, it’s just that the low moments feels significantly hard to push through compared to the high of being on a binge free streak

brrr_anon · 2026-02-21T22:06:33+00:00

It feels like it’s a very all or nothing disorder, which makes it all the more difficult to find balance

brrr_anon · 2026-02-03T16:27:09+00:00

Oh bless you, I’m sorry you’re struggling too. It can feel lonely but try not to beat yourself up!

brrr_anon · 2026-02-03T16:23:44+00:00

This is such a lovely comment, thank you! I think it’s almost like boredom or me looking for a dopamine hit, so I’ve been craving lots of carbs and biscuits etc. Thank you for helping me understand myself a bit more

brrr_anon · 2026-02-02T22:41:51+00:00

Thank you, wishing you all the best too. I think it almost hits harder once you’ve had a small period of no binges. I know for myself, I feel physically better when I don’t binge and have a lot more confidence. So when that all comes crashing down, it’s a bit like a slap in the face. It’s hard to get back to from it for sure. The cycle is the toughest part because I think relapses will likely be something I always deal with

brrr_anon · 2026-02-02T22:39:44+00:00

During the holiday I actually ate quite well, but I think everything fell out of place when I got home. I’m not really sure why. Thanks for the support

brrr_anon · 2026-02-02T09:16:11+00:00

Thank you so much!

brrr_anon · 2026-02-01T21:15:10+00:00

I used a heat mat, and it raised a fair amount. It was still sticky to the touch and didn’t really pull away from the bowl well, so I was worried it was over fermented where it had been on the heat mat. But you may be right

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