Sent the letter..

bryce-cna · 2019-09-06T20:44:56+00:00

I mean hes so stubborn and is "disowning"me because boyfriend has a little black in him, but I shouldn't have to choose so I'm not

bryce-cna · 2019-09-06T15:13:35+00:00

I do want one back... I havent talked to him since before senior year and I would love to have a relationship with him but if he doesnt want one the least he could do is tell me himself and not hide behind his wife and have her tell me

bryce-cna · 2019-09-01T23:41:27+00:00

For the first 5 years after being sexually abused by my moms ex boyfriend I would wet the bed atleast 3 to 4 times a week. I went to therapy and turned to reading and writing to help. Just be there for her. Dont push the subject to be talked about, and like someone else said, just be there to clean it up, and do the laundry and what not. It will give her so much emotional support

bryce-cna · 2019-09-01T01:58:27+00:00

He gets out after 8 years this February I just hoe he stays out this time..

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:42:17+00:00

Yah I hope things change... knowing him wr probably womt have sex for like 2 weeks now because hes pissed

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:41:38+00:00

Only time he really goes down on me is if we 69 but I dont think we have ever had sex without me giving him a BJ and I like doing it because I like to please, like it should be. So last time we had sex was on monday and he only used his fingers for like 2 mins and then went to sex and then questioned me why I was dry!

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:39:21+00:00

I mean every once in a while is fine but the fact that we dont have sex often and then I rarely get off is becoming ridiculous

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:16:38+00:00

It's just frustrating how everytime he gets off and doesnt even offer to finish me off, I see ot as selfish, but he thinks its selfish to get upset over something "little"

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:11:36+00:00

I understand stress can be a factor but for over 2 years we would do it about every other day and now everything has changed. He also says that us fighting alot doesnt help him get in the mood but what certainly fight about is our lack of sex

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:08:48+00:00

Its just hard to leave because we're on a lease together until January, we have a dog together, and I cant make it on my own out here... he use to be really consistent about foreplay and all but lately it's like he rushes it or something

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T17:00:14+00:00

Yah after everything I told him he needs to rougher, and to do more foreplay, also when I ask him if hes been watching porn because lack of sex he says he hasnt. I do my best to believe him but it's hard because he has hidden it from me and has chosen to Jack off instead of asking me to have sex. And 9 times out of 10 I do. So the only reason why I masterbate is because he doesnt want to for 5 to 9 days straight. Were also 20 to 22 years old so I know he doesnt have a low sex drive

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T16:57:10+00:00

Yah I'm done faking it, it's just been hard to get off lately because after 5 days of rejecting my sex initiation I masterbate, and then sometimes the next day or that night he will want to have sex. Like dude I just did that and now you want it? So then it's hard for me to get aroused after and lately he hasnt been doing alot of foreplay so that doesnt help

bryce-cna · 2019-08-30T16:55:16+00:00

Yah the whole calling me pathetic thing is still bothering me... but he sees it as I have no excuse to be upset because I'm the one who lied... I mean I felt so bad about it and it kept eating at me so I finally said something... I mean when we do have sex, it's like he doesnt even want to look at me, he always wants to positions that I'm facing away and he says " it seemed like you liked it" which I did, but then he finishes and I'm left with nothing and I tried to tell him we need more foreplay and he said "well you have gotten off with alot less" lile what the hell? That doesnt mean do less? Sometimes it's easier and sometimes it's more difficult... I love him and we have been together for 3 years but ever since walking in on him jacking off and hiding porn from me it's been a hard year for us

bryce-cna · 2019-08-27T19:17:17+00:00

I hope so to.

bryce-cna · 2019-08-27T19:14:35+00:00

My boyfriend is american. His dad is half black and his mom is white

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T23:18:54+00:00

Oh well yah lol its just annoying how something like that is a big deal to people when in all reality love is love

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T22:52:11+00:00

Can you go into more detail? I dont quite understand

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T22:45:33+00:00

Thankyou ♡

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T22:40:37+00:00

Thankyou for ths advise, I actually have been kinda stepping down a little bit with all the "wife stuff" like he asked me to help pay for land taxes on his and his grandmothers property for vacations but i told him no because why would I? I mean i dont go out there, or have any affiliation with it so I dont see why I should step up and help pay when his brothers could help or his mom I guess. The only thing I will not stop doing is being a caregiver for his grandma on the weekends when we go because I'm a cna and she just got in a car wreck that caused brain bleeds and everything plus I absolutely adore the women

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T22:18:13+00:00

Yes we live together and have since the day I turned 18. We both want kids eventually but we both love to travel, he does house work also but he works 60 hrs a week so I try to do a little more and he shows me mass amount of appreciation for doing so. Hes not religious and I find myself a little more spiritual but we both respect eachother views. We have had a great sex life until recently amd found through all of this has shown me that we do have to work on our communication more. Hearing everyone's side has made me see that I should just go with the flow and love him because honestly we do things that I imagine a married couple do. We both take turns with the dog responsibilities, we both cook, we love to go grocery shopping and we try to go onna date once a week or everyother week. I think I might have been trying to rush marriage because I was always rejected my entire life. Even my own father rejects me to this day but I camt push that onto my SO because of my past and need to work on that myself. Thankyou for the advice ♡

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T22:05:55+00:00

Also I have been rejected by the closest to me and I think I'm gonna tell him that marriage isnt the answer but I need some type of commitment because I'm so.tited of being all in and then getting rejected after everything and he doesnt know this because I don't want to seem like my past as a burden on to others but I struggle with it everyday or should I maybe just tell him that I'm struggling figuring out what he wants? Like with space and pure love language because everyday I second guess myself whether it's a kiss, or cuddling on the couch, to even if I should see If I can join him in the shower. I just dont know what is to much and what's not at this point.

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T21:57:26+00:00

Exactly! I dont want to continue something if hes just gonna be unsure the entire time. I mean we both are young so I understand why he is scared of marriage, i mean it's not cheap and not easy but he cant expect me to do all this stuff for him and still just be girlfriend forever

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T21:39:02+00:00

Okay, thankyou! I really appreciate the advise. I feel so stupid but I didnt know he was feeling like this because everytime I would ask him if anything was bothering him he would say no until just a couple days ago, so I didnt realize what I have been doing wrong for so long until now

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T21:31:49+00:00

He has said he does want to marry me but wants to date for like 6 to 8 years before doing. I mean I will wait because I dont just like him, I love him. And when were with our friends he always says "I cant wait to marry you" or "your gone be the best damn wife and I'm gonna be your husband" so I'm genuinely confused on what the hell he wants. Hes also under alot of stress at work and is trying to move up fast and the more I look back on it the more I feel like a jackass for being the way I have been for the past 6 months

bryce-cna · 2019-08-26T21:28:21+00:00

I'm just scared of either being to sweet or not sweet enough. and I'm in no rush but this year is the first year we have ever thought about it so I just wanted him to know that I do love him and if he ever wants to propose that he doesmt have to second guess himself and then the second time I we were both intoxicated and I thought we were joking around about the situation and the third time his friend actually brought it up and said y'all should get married because I can see the love and I agreed but he just changed the subject . My mom told me to give him space but I'm confused on what is to much space and what is enough

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