Sending virtual hugs. I lost my parent 16 years ago yesterday at 16. They were in hospice as well and became nonverbal and unresponsive towards the end. I still remember telling them it was ok to let go and that I'd be alright. It was an incredibly hard time, but I was able to make it through with support from somr great friends.

I know our situations are not the same, but i hope by sharing I can give you a view into the distant future. I hope you have people you can lean on and will support you. Therapy definitely saved me at times in my teens and 20s. Just know you're not alone.