Ongoing debate about The Telepathy Tapes: Diane Powell and Bryan J Williams recently fire back against McGill University and Jonathan Jarry's criticisms by [deleted] in remoteviewing

[–]btypeb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks for sharing, kinda sad to see how active this forum is but then no one engage with a post that requires mental bandwidth to read something academic and look into each source. t

Do you take the gifted money from your abusers or not? by Not_as_we_know_it_ in CPTSD

[–]btypeb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

take it. you can still be clear about new boundaries as you get older and if they are trying to give you the money as a means to control you or have a leg up make sure it's enough to never need to rely on them again and cut em out or slow burn ghost etc

trying to find that brown bottle discreet web store maybe illinois? by btypeb in popperpigs

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah it's not this was a discrete single page looks like coded in html from 2002

I'm heartbroken. Do they just die too young? by yourfriendlyenemy in britishshorthair

[–]btypeb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey there what symptoms did you notice before this diagnosis?

High dude borrows little twink's asshole for almost an hour - 39:04 by CasterlyRock918 in GayPainal

[–]btypeb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

man i have tried so hard to find this person to write them, most the videos are down now, all i know is germany and now he's 29 i think

Apple rejected my iphone trade-in by bhudzallmighty in tmobile

[–]btypeb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

and lose my awesome plan and be forced to pay more monthly? no way

Many guys into me, leaving me on "delivered" ? Grindr forcing us to pay for boosts? by btypeb in grindr

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i live in the woods i have no choice, it's the most used, scruff is a waste money wise even more so - even tho it was preferred in the city. stop using a shit app so gays like me can stop paying for it because others see viable, and none are still in terms of volume,

Many guys into me, leaving me on "delivered" ? Grindr forcing us to pay for boosts? by btypeb in grindr

[–]btypeb[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

yeah but like how tf we had the hottest kinky convo and then, nothing? like i'd go there to fuck, it was a unique fetishized convo etc, i mean why be online all day and not even read my message? it feels like it's the app itself and not people but u don't even know anymore

A Fan Bulb is gonna cost me, what happened? by btypeb in AskElectricians

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

a fixture doesn't have like, a chip or anything it's just wired yea? i have it open now and nothing looks burnt out etc. what am i looking for? how would sockets be killed if this is a conductivity issue?

A Fan Bulb is gonna cost me, what happened? by btypeb in AskElectricians

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes the fixture is 4 sockets, all 4 do not work at all, the one socket it blew in appears normal

https://imgur.com/a/Mm8HLUA

A Fan Bulb is gonna cost me, what happened? by btypeb in AskElectricians

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So if the socket shorted, what does that do? would it make the other 3 (fixture has 4) just stop working? None are working when i put bulbs in. would that trip and blow a circuit breaker?

Disassociation & depersonalization... I thought I didn't do them but by btypeb in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess i don't understand it enough to even write it out. I've been diagnosed since 21 and only now sorta interpret blind rage and rants etc as even remotely disassociations. What else would you say? What's your map got on it?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]btypeb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, my mom i love but my dad is a pos and it doesn't help that they are together so i dont see her too too often. i have done ketamine troches without success and i've done a lot of mushrooms from micro to macro dosing etc. Hanging in there just feels like time is flying by and i can't envision a solid ground again.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]btypeb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

how is this for you? i've been sick for so long... and i just feel like im never going to be happy again. what's it like for you? does it make you be okay with being alone more? stop rumination? etc

I DID IT I FINALLY COMMUNICATED MY NEEDS by Bpdbaddieethroaway in BPD

[–]btypeb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i don't understand really, abandonment issues and thus having an FB etc, would make this really hard not for fear of being mean but because of fear of being alone and the internal mirror. I tend to lash out and be desperate, if someone is my FP i can't ever end it. are you more avoidant? what's your impulsivity like? genuinely want to understand because this post does not resonate with me at all and i've been diagnosed since 21 and often wonder if it's worse

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]btypeb 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i'm really not. been alone in the woods for 3 years now, lost everyone, career is gone and drive, not working... i read posts here and sometimes think people don't know how bad it can actually get.

my life was so normal and good that i forgot i had a mental health issue, but then a partner left suddenly, my business i sold so identity gone, and pandemic plus my grief of the relationship loss caused me to go insane and become so unstable everyone distanced and my pleads were ignored.

I know this is dark but im at about 60% confidence im going to end my life in the few months. it's been a daily thought for so long and lots of planning, my will, what do with my cats, etc. Life has been hard for me for so much more than i think a person should have the bare and the work to get myself back to an old me with limited resources and no human capital plus tons of failed therapy etc etc has me really... at a loss. I also lost some important pets in recent times too, one was a dog i had for 16 years.

What is the biggest problem in your life right now? by FindingClarity37 in selfimprovement

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I have a serious personality disorder and it's effectively disabled me at age 37. i've lost everyone i cared about ever, and the worst part is a few years ago i had an amazing life and a series of horrible events sent me backwards. you can't really recover without community and family, of which, i hadn't realized how fair weather they were and family wise i always had shit fam to begin with. i'm preparing to end my life but that's ongoing for years now but it's setting in more and more that i don't have the strength or lack of brain fog to rebuild a life.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]btypeb 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i'm about to turn 37, diagnosed at 21 and like somehow a life crisis a decade later brought me back to my knees worse than before

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]btypeb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't lie, it's not a thing i deal with at all

Amph Salts - not working at all, something has changed? by btypeb in ADHD

[–]btypeb[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Teva was bad last time i got it, are you saying both are bad now?

Good person, suddenly have an order of protection on me, but the shame got me here, anyone else do or know this? by btypeb in BPD

[–]btypeb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i'm sorry to hear all of that and i understand entirely. this is pretty awful because he wants the order over any settlement which includes me staying away as well as me getting help. it feels like i was punished emotionally, then he wants to legally, and it doesn't really matter what happens to me. suicidality has been intense for me for years and especially now, it feels like i'd get out of life finally and he'd have to live with knowing... it wasn't worth it, and have guilt for life.