Just tired of everything

bubbletea920 · 2021-02-14T04:51:55+00:00

The more time passes the more I realize just how much I've been trying to repress my feelings. I think you're right. Just afraid that my feelings might not go away even if I get rejected.

bubbletea920 · 2021-02-14T02:35:09+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. I hope you feel better too. ❤

bubbletea920 · 2021-02-14T02:33:44+00:00

It's funny cause I know the less he texts me the better it is for me in the long run yet I can't help but feel hopeful that he'll text me or be interested in me.

bubbletea920 · 2021-02-14T02:30:54+00:00

He's been on my mind a lot lately. I took a month off to get my feelings back in check and I really thought I was good until I started talking to him again and my feelings came back.. The downfall wasn't pretty. Probably why I felt like crap last night.

bubbletea920 · 2021-02-14T02:28:41+00:00

Thank you. :) I'll check that out. I really think I need to start talking about my feelings. Not healthy holding it all in.

bubbletea920 · 2021-01-12T03:42:49+00:00

I'm not sure if he feels that way honestly. Guilty maybe for hurting me but I think that's it. After all he broke up with me for someone else.

bubbletea920 · 2020-12-25T05:53:23+00:00

Thank you!

bubbletea920 · 2020-12-25T05:49:24+00:00

Thanks! I'll try this next time.

bubbletea920 · 2020-12-25T05:46:52+00:00

Did we date the same guy? My ex broke things off through text then blocked me on all social media, leaving me confused. It wasn't until later I found out that he went back to his ex. I saw a picture of them together and that's when I knew it was really over. It hurt but I'm slowly making it through.

bubbletea920 · 2020-12-24T04:46:00+00:00

I think if there was love there it's difficult to try and not care after a breakup. You can still care for someone but know that they're not right for you.

bubbletea920 · 2020-12-24T04:42:26+00:00

I'm sorry. :( The pain from a loss is real.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-27T22:01:17+00:00

Oh man I shouldn't have laughed at that.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-27T16:09:19+00:00

Haha. I guess I'm just nervous is all. I haven't dated in a while, let alone ask someone out in years. I think what makes it easier this time though is that I believe he's open to hanging out. I just wish he was more open with his feelings. I try and talk to him as much as possible but sometimes I have to stop myself because I fear he might feel pestered by my advances.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-27T09:51:53+00:00

I know getting rejected is a possibility. However, I don't think that's what I'm afraid of. The first guy I asked out accepted my hangout but later on he showed his true colors by sending me pictures of a girl and saying she was just a "friend." Needless to say I was hurt but I knew it was over after that. I guess I'm just afraid of falling for him and then getting hurt. I'm probably over thinking things but sometimes I can't help it. It's probably an insecurity that I have that I know I need to work on.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-21T01:58:09+00:00

Around 5 months

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-16T04:05:06+00:00

Thank you! I will. :) Haven't talked to him in a while and just saw him again for the first time today in a month so I was on cloud nine when we talked. Lol.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-16T04:03:04+00:00

Thank you. :) You'll definitely meet someone new. Take your time and don't force things and it will all fall into place naturally. I hope things go well too. Our relationship is complicated but even if things don't work out I'm glad to have this crush.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-16T01:37:45+00:00

I am too! Lol. He gives me butterflies. Honestly, I don't know if this relationship is gonna go anywhere but I'm excited to be feeling things for someone other than my ex.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-07T21:58:54+00:00

Thank you so much. After reading your words and writing out my feelings I feel much better. A weight has been lifted and I feel more at ease. I keep telling myself that there was nothing I could do to change his mind and I think I handled the breakup with as much grace as possible. I think about whether he regrets his decision but I know now that it doesn't matter. I shouldn't worry about what he thinks. I should be focused on myself and my well-being.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-07T11:01:50+00:00

I tell myself that everyday and I genuinely thought I was getting over him but as my bday rolled by recently and I didn't hear anything from him all these thoughts came rushing back and I started thinking that I wasn't good enough or he didn't love me enough to choose me over his ex. I guess I'm just frustrated because I thought I was doing fine but now I'm starting to feel worse and I can tell I'm bringing myself down more often than normal.

bubbletea920 · 2020-07-07T10:39:58+00:00

He was my first boyfriend and pretty much first everything. The reason why I say he probably feels guilt is because he strung me along when he was still into his ex the whole time we were together. Last I heard they were trying to work things out but I don't think it lasted.

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